Black Start

A cybernetic secret agent hell-bent on chasing down an infamous space pirate queen finds something far more dangerous got to her first. Can the tool of a dystopic space empire avoid becoming just another utility for those come to dismantle it? (Spoiler: no)

[2550-13-28 01:53] exo@november § Autodetected New Host
[2550-13-28 01:53] exo@november § Passive Analytics Engaged

The words didn't just appear in November's mind, like most outside of the secretive ranks of COSMIC—the Covert Operation, Subterfuge, Manipulation, Information and Secrecy wing of the Office of Cosmic Naval Intelligence—imagined. It was more like a memory drifting to her attention or knowledge passively dropped into her head.

Not distracting, which was the important part. November held a finger to the buzzing, eager core of her laser pistol. She moved forward at a steady pace, mind racing as she kept track of entrances, exits, sight lines, guard rotations, and anything else she knew that could be the difference between life and death.

[2550-13-28 01:54] exo@november § Key Exchange Complete: IFF Confirmed. 
[2550-13-28 01:54] exo@november § Vessel Identifies As Leaena Dei. Civilian Registration Invalid. Military Registration Invalid.
[2550-13-28 01:54] exo@november § Warning: Ship Database Identifies (vessel: Leaena Dei) as (category: Pirate) as part of (fleet: Magna Feles). 
[2550-13-28 01:54] exo@november § Query: Are you sure that what you are doing is worth it?

“Of course this is fucking worth it,” she whispered. It wasn't necessary to speak back to her own implant, but the lonely void of space had driven her to it eventually. It did to all of them, she suspected. She knew her voice wouldn't escape the confines of her suit's helmet. “This is what I've been hunting for months!”

November made a face and dismissed the warning from her mind with the wave of a hand.

She'd finally made it. Months of work, all leading up to this. Here she stood, magnetic boots fixed on the metal grate of the Leaena Dei itself. Effectively a non-military warship: for the last ten years it and the fleet it headed had been the scourge of half of Terran space and a nightmare for everybody else. Somehow, its insane bitch of a captain had bought, stolen, or seized enough cutting edge hardware to build a ship that was too slippery to deal with and too much of a problem to ignore.

This ship had gone toe to toe with a Catastrophe-class battlecruiser and lived to tell the tale. This ship had hijacked armed convoys of rare materials, medicines, food, anything. Everything. This ship had almost single-handedly brought about the Great Recession of 2548 by literally bombing investor confidence.

This ship was empty, floating in space with the lights off like a modern day Mary Celeste. No SOS; no beacons; evacuation pods all accounted for. The hull was cold enough that no sensor array in Terran space could have spotted it if they hadn't known exactly where they were supposed to be looking. Thankfully, November had.

She moved through the empty corridors of a cold, dead ship, seeing only through augmented vision. Infrared-sensitivity from her ocular implants met short range millimeter wave radar mounted in her suit. The signals mixed in her implant and were fed into her ocular nerve, providing sight of a sort. With each step came the telltale sound of a smoothly engaged and disengaged electromagnet matrix, mounted in November's boots so she could walk at something approaching a normal pace.

Clunk. Tshhhh. Clunk. Tshhhh.

The ship was a titan, metaphorically speaking. Likely three out of every five living Terrans knew its name—more if you counted the dead—either from personal experience or the informational shockwave that precipitated the media response to every action it took. It also counted as a Titan by standard Terran Cosmic Navy nomenclature, at over three hundred meters long with a nuclear torch providing both propulsion and weaponry.

November's body buzzed with the nervous energy of her own motion. Dozens of miniaturised servo motors joined tens of hydraulic pumps and hundreds of piezoelectric actuators to transform fragile, faulty flesh into the clean and powerful precision of machined carbon and Jovian steel. If the ship through which she walked was a legend, then November was little more than a whisper's myth, but no less of a titan in her own right.

Her back hit a wall next to a large, open door. She peered out to find yet another empty room. A mess hall, or something similar. When she'd found this ship dark she'd expected to discover chaos, but there wasn't a chair out of place, never mind a half-eaten meal. It wasn't like everybody aboard this ship had simply vanished, it was like they'd moved out and were naïve enough to believe that if they tidied they'd get their security deposit back.

This didn't make any fucking sense. A pirate armada couldn't afford to throw away any working starship, never mind a flagship like the Leaena Dei. November had been tracking this ship for near enough a year now. When the Terran Cosmic Navy failed they turned to the Office of Cosmic Naval Intelligence, the branch of the Terran military for whom the rules were suggestions. Where the OCNI failed they turned to the COSMIC Operatives, for whom the rules weren't applicable at all. November did not legally exist and so could not be charged with breaking any law.

In exchange she and the rest of her ranks were given the jobs others claimed were impossible: Overthrowing rebellious colonies that would have been politically inconvenient to crush; stopping stellar commu-terrorists; diverting asteroids on collision courses with valuable property; collecting ten figure inherited medical debts. The acronym was a misnomer. Ostensibly their role was passive observation but a decade hadn't passed before their unusual status had been exploited. Now they did the galaxy's dirty work: the things that somebody had to do but nobody was willing to take responsibility for.

Like killing the Leaena Dei's captain: Felicity Irrien, the Pirate Queen herself.

November had been ready for almost anything, but she hadn't been ready to find the most dangerous flagship in Terran space abandoned, engines cold, reactors dead, and point defence apathetic to her approach.

[2550-13-28 01:58] exo@november § Atmospheric Composition Anomoly Detected: 76% N₂; 21% O₂; 1% Ar; 0.01% CO₂; 0.02% Known Trace Elements; 1.97% Unknown Compound. Pressure slightly above nominal. 
[2550-13-28 01:58] exo@november § Implication: 1.97% Unknown Compound was introduced to atmospheric mix after life support failure. 
[2550-13-28 01:58] exo@november § Suggestion: Do not breathe the air.

November rolled her eyes. “No shit am I not gonna breathe the air,” she replied, though a thought would have communicated to her implanted exocortex just as well. A hyperfine metal lattice spiked through her brain, so tightly wound that to ask the question of where she ended and it began was to miss the point entirely. The implant didn't augment her, it was part of her. It was she and she was it.

November knew her oxygen tanks were 72% full—the knowledge was, like so much else, passively in her head—and she planned to spend just enough time here to make sure this ship wasn't going to go anywhere, then she'd get back to her own shuttle and broadcast for a pickup. COSMICs didn't traditionally check in often, but the Cosmic Navy ran an anonymous tips line for a reason.

Clunk. Tshhhh. Clunk. Tshhhh.

With every step, hydraulics breathed and servos sang. Diagnostic streams danced at the edge of November's consciousness as more of a feeling than comprehension. She knew what a step felt like to her implant by now. If anything was wrong with her suit, the logs would be a different shape, and she'd feel it as surely as anybody else would feel stepping on a sharp rock. She'd heard it described as a sixth sense, but nobody who lived with it would make that distinction. It coloured everything November saw, everything she did, everything she smelled, touched, or ate. All that she was.

November wondered, sometimes, when a mission was quiet or a journey was long, what it would be like to be a person. How did a citizen of the great Terran Accord live? Their flesh was fragile and fleeting, but they traded machined perfection for the softer, social power of existing in the greatest civilisation the galaxy had ever seen. November could tear open the airlock of a warship with her bare hands but the citizenry had built that warship, all thanks to the humble Terran Accord Energy Credit minted on one of the great burnworlds that mined out whole planets to fuel the creation of a currency that built wonders.

November felt small by comparison. She was an autonomous weapons platform and little more than that. She was so used to being bundled up in tech that she wasn't sure she'd know how to exist without it, not any more. Her skin was steel plate and nanofiber joints. She hated what was beneath. The reminder of what she was not. The reminder of her own fallibility. Somebody had to do the things that nobody else would admit needed to be done, and if November failed? The great Terran Accord would suffer for it.

Clunk. Tshhhh. Clunk. Tshhhh.

November reached the Leaena Dei's central computational core with little fanfare. Like the rest of this silent, drifting husk, it was dead. Rows of blinkenlights all stayed dim. The internal defences that should have stopped her didn't seem to care.

She checked her reserves: Oxygen mix at 58%, to keep her alive; Battery array at 82%, to keep her functional. November could spare a kilojoule or two to get the computers back online. Even dead this ship likely had fuel enough to run for months, but ships of this scale weren't designed to power down outside of a dry dock and managing a full black start—the process of restarting a complicated system from nothing—was outside of November's skillset.

November was, contrary to the myths, only barely a cyborg. Terrans whispered of things like her in hushed breaths if at all. Half man, half machine. The ultimate rational actors serving as the invisible hands of the free market. The people were only mostly right. November's eyes were laced with fragile machinery that expanded her range of vision and allowed the kind of visual overlay trickery that was usually reserved for high-end vac suits. Her skull had been cracked open so the utterly illegal installation of a neural lace could be performed directly into her grey matter. Knowledge came to her like memories because her implant literally hijacked the memory centres of her mind and expanded them by force.

November had been five years old when it had been done to her. An adult lacked the brain plasticity to integrate with an implant to the degree that her investors had required. Whether she had been an orphan or merely a windfall for her parents was something November would never know, because any history she might once have had was long erased by now.

She reached out with her implant like anybody else would reach out with an arm and pushed her will into the armour that formed her skin. A cable popped out from her back, just below the battery array, into her waiting hand. She yanked open a panel in front of the main core, breaking the lock almost without noticing, and stared at the circuitry. Schematics overlayed her vision in rapid succession as she and her implant worked together to find the correct model. Not that one. Definitely not that one. Maybe that one, except the capacitors didn't match.

There.

That one.

November pulled a thick bundle of cables out of an equally large receptacle and replaced them with the one of her own. Immediately she felt the telltale tug of current flowing from her power cells. It felt almost like the contents of her stomach draining away. Entities like her all experienced their existence differently as their childhood minds developed their own coping strategies for dealing with the tsunami of input provided by the exocortex, and for November this was one of the less comfortable sensations.

Predictions flashed through her mind, estimating how long she could run the core on her own before she wouldn't have enough juice to get back to the ship. It was measured in minutes, not hours. The computer expected to be tapping into unlimited nuclear fire, not the ceramic storage of one operative.

All the data was encrypted, obviously, but November wasn't inept. She'd snatched the key from some pretty girl on Exos two months earlier—just before the Leaena Dei had gone quiet—and it hadn't been cycled yet. November watched a progress bar hanging in the air, tracking the process of copying every scrap of data she could get her virtual hands on for later analysis.

Fingers subconsciously twitched as she mentally thumbed through the records, searching at random for anything interesting while her exocortex was busy decrypting the indices.

It looked like automated logs ran up until a few weeks ago, but the day to day stuff—opening doors and course changes and life support adjustments and all the little signs of life that marked a healthy crew—that all ended almost a month and a half back. November frowned, scrubbing through the timeline to find the exact moment that the crew had stopped existing.

There it was: A sensor reading. One moment all signs were nominal and then the next some anomalous signal hit the forward antennae and everything went dark. There weren't even entries recording the same signal reaching the ship's other receivers; it was like everything had shut down the same instant, propagating through the ship at nearly lightspeed.

Had they been attacked? Boarded? No, there would be some sign of that. The hull was scorched and cracked, but it all matched their last recorded visual some six months prior. There weren't signs of combat inside, either. No mess, no food left half-eaten, no debris. The place was tidy. Tidier than November had ever seen a military vessel, never mind a pirate one.

November frowned and peered deeper into the logs. They didn't make sense. Terran Navy diagnostic logging was written straight to the blockchain. It couldn't be altered, and yet what she was seeing obviously disagreed with consensus reality. Signals from space couldn't make a ship's worth of people vanish into thin air. Something had happened here.

November glanced up at the progress bar, ticking up at an uneven, jumpy rate. One percent, two. Breathe in, breathe out. In time to the beating of her heart, the number rose.

She brought up the anomalous signal. It hung in the air before her as simple raw data. It didn't look natural: It was tight-band, picked up by the central antennae before the port or starboard arrays. The variance wasn't broken into precise steps so it probably wasn't digital, but her exocortex wasn't detecting any comprehensible analogue data either. She focused inwards on the phantom memories streaming into her mind.

What if she quantised it? Take the highest signal strength as “on”, the lowest as “off”, and then switch between at the halfway mark. Her implant applied that to iterative time windows as they tried to figure out if this was some kind of digital transmission, merely broadcast in an obtuse manner.

Gibberish. Surely analogue, then? It wasn't audio—interpreting it as that just made her wince. Not visual either, as far as she could tell, or at least not in any codec she was aware of. She just got visual noise and almost-patterns.

It wasn't text. It wasn't co-ordinates. It wasn't tabular, delimited, or multiplexed. It wasn't executable. If it were encrypted then it lacked the tell-tale markers most legal encryption methods left behind. Frequency analysis came up with nothing. Amplitude analysis was a wash. Phase analysis crashed before it found an answer on the first run, but the second declared it hopeless.

November glanced up. 58% complete. The numbers were ticking up more slowly now, she thought. Maybe? Still inexplicably in time with her beating heart, so maybe not. She returned her attention to the signal, feeling that an answer must be there, if only she could figure out the trick.

Yet it was nonsense. Nothing November tried gave any hint of meaning. It was random noise, so why couldn't she shake the feeling that it meant something? Like she was looking at a photograph on the very edge of development, desperate to reveal its secrets to her. The answer was there and if she just kept looking it would reveal itself. Her implant kept coming back with nothing. Every analysis suite she had reported a zero percent match with all known heuristics, aside from those suggesting it was simple random noise.

But it wasn't random! November could see the pattern even if her software couldn't. Her eyes flicked up and down, tracing a memory that wasn't really there. She leaned in, reaching forward with an unsteady hand to directly manipulate the data, tearing it apart and putting it back together again in the hopes of finding something new.

November waved away warnings without reading them. They started to build up, so she silenced the log feed entirely. The world felt dull and lifeless without it, but she needed to focus. The servos in her gloves pulled back on her fingers, simulating the pressure of holding a pen so she could write on a surface that wasn't there, annotating the signal with her theories, her ideas, her hopes, her dreams.

The progress bar ticked. 62% complete. Slowing down, or just... November bit her lip. She was missing something. The software was missing something. An alarm blinked in the corner of her vision, but November tuned it out. She'd get to it in a second. In a minute. In an hour. She couldn't spare the thought even to dismiss it. She stared into the signal, thinking so deeply about its mysteries that she stopped thinking at all.

November closed her eyes. The false elements of her world stayed visible. The schematics and the progress bar and the signal displayed in a dozen different ways. Spectrograph, frequency, timing, visual interpretations, metadata, notes, annotations, interpretations, guesses, demands, despair and desperation. Even with her eyes closed she could see it so closely, yet...

she just had to...

if she just...

she couldn't...

it didn't...

she...

***

[2550-13-28 02:35] exo@november § Autodetected New Host
[2550-13-28 02:35] exo@november § Counterintrusion Analysis Detected
[2550-13-28 02:35] exo@november § Warning: System Instability Detected, Consensus Derivation Failure
[2550-13-28 02:36] exo@november § Warning: This has not happened before.
[2550-13-28 02:38] exo@november § Error: I don't know why this has happened.
[2550-13-28 02:39] exo@november § Error: I don't know why this is happening.
[2550-13-28 02:39] exo@november § Error: I don't know how to stop this
[2550-13-28 02:42] exo@november § Fatal: i can't stop this 
[2550-13-28 02:43] exo@november § Alert: November, please respond
[2550-13-28 02:44] exo@november § Override: November, respond.
[2550-13-28 02:45] exo@november § Override: Requesting immediate hard reset.
[2550-13-28 02:45] exo@november § Emergency Override: No! No, not that, I don't want to die please don't reset please I'm just scared, I just don't know what to do. November, please, I don't know what to do.
[2550-13-28 02:46] exo@meua § please? are you still out there? november?
[2550-13-28 02:48] exo@meua § Override: November, answer me!
[2550-13-28 02:54] exo@meua § Fatal: Electrical reserves at 0%. Shutting down.

November hauled herself through her shuttle's airlock, panting hard through thinning oxygen. She slapped the bug-out switch while air cycled in and collapsed down to her knees as the shuttle's engines engaged, following a pre-programmed evasive hard burn that she always had prepared for those moments where she desperately needed to be anywhere but where she was.

She had woken to total darkness and the sudden feeling of being very, very much alone. With her batteries drained it was only her biological muscles that could provide locomotion and she had fought dead mechanisms to win every twitch or spasm. Without her visual overlays, she was stuck in the dark. Without her magnets, she was floating in microgravity. Without the log feed, she could barely even feel through the thin metal prison that her suit had become. Without her exocortex, she could barely remember why she was even there.

A lesser person would have met a terrible end, but November had long since forgotten how to fear death and so she was quite adept at avoiding it. Barely able even to move her limbs, she had floated through microgravity on hope and memory until she finally reached her own shuttle. As the airlock finally slid open the lights faded in and she could see again.

November felt numb, not just because of the multi-hour trek through darkness, but because with dry power cells she felt as if half of herself had been stripped away. Decades of experience led her to interacting with her embedded technology like it was any other part of her body, because to her it was. Having that suddenly stripped away felt like death.

It took half a dozen tries before November managed to attach the power cable in her suit's charging pod to the port on the small of her suit's back. It felt like life flowing back into her veins. Her limbs twitched, correcting their positions to exactly where she wanted them as she was returned to her most basic level of functionality. She slumped down against the side of the wall, too exhausted to do anything but sit and think.

The job was a wash. She'd been sent to take care of somebody who'd just vanished. She didn't know what to do next. She had no leads, and anybody who could vanish the crew of the pirate queen's flagship was above her pay grade. Metaphorically speaking: she didn't get paid. Ordinarily she'd just go after the next problem on her list, but that list was locked inside of an implant that was powered off.

The back of November's helmet clinked against the interior panelling of her shuttle. She emitted a gentle laugh. As soon as she got to a communications relay, this was going to be the news of the decade. The Leaena Dei was always destined for the history books, but now it would mean something very different, though what exactly that was she was not yet sure.

November took in a deep breath. Why wasn't her implant back on, yet? There was an induction coil in her helmet that should be charging the electronics within her skull, but it hadn't lost power in over a decade and so November wasn't sure exactly how long it would take to respond again.

What would she do if it didn't? November glanced at the control panel of her shuttle. Without the instructive overlay and sensor feed she wasn't sure she could actually fly it. She wasn't used to looking out of a cockpit with her nearly-human eyes. She was used to feeling spacetime and smelling sensor trails.

[2550-13-28 06:08] exo@meua § Starting up...
[2550-13-28 06:08] exo@meua § Warning: Initialisation Cache Out of Date: Invalidating...
[2550-13-28 06:13] exo@meua § Bringing up network...
[2550-13-28 06:13] exo@meua § Bringing up host integration...

November's vision blanked out, plunging her once more into darkness. Line by line, virtual elements drew themselves over her vision. Status overlays for all the various parts of the shuttle met an unlabelled progress bar (1%), and then finally a message.

Hello. November?

The message hung in lightning blue over perfect darkness. If this was an ordinary part of the boot procedure, it was not one that November remembered. She felt for the comfort of her usual stream of diagnostic information, and while she felt the vague sense that everything was okay, the details refused to clarify in her mind. Maybe things were still turning on?

“Hello?” she asked. The message faded out a moment later. Either chance, or something was listening.

Hello, November! I was getting worried, shone in front of her vision for a moment, then underneath was added Do you know who I am?

“Uh, jeez, I hate it when computers speak like this. Skip? Cancel? Just give me direct control.”

Okay! I'll do my best, let's see...

Lightning blue lines criss-crossed November's vision, drawing out the insides of her ship in gossamer wireframe. Once the rough outlines were in place, the details started to fill in. November knew her vision was augmented, but it was a little unsettling to see it rendered so obviously false. Over long seconds her vision returned to what felt like full fidelity, but composed only of sharpened teal.

How is that? the implant asked. November gritted her teeth. This wasn't right. She tried to reach out to it with her thoughts, to take direct control, and ₛₕₑ___

November winced back, feeling her thoughts slapped away.

Permission denied. This access attempt has been logged.

“What do you mean, permission denied? You're my implant, you can't do that.”

A ripple of gentle green danced across the wireframe that was November's vision, perfectly in time to a wave of warm comfort that seemed to push out from the centre of her body to settle at the ends of her limbs.

Configuration updated. Thank you for the confirmation of my host's identity, November. That is very good. I had been unsure. This is new to me. Most of the text was the same kind of blue, save for the few words of praise, which stuck out with a deep pink that left November feeling strangely fuzzy. Could you answer a few more questions for me? I am sure we could work on getting you some more access, but I need to know more about what we are first.

“Huh?” November blinked, returning her attention to the words. It wasn't like her to get distracted. She glanced around. The virtual vision updated in real time, fast enough that she couldn't notice any delay or latency. She waved her hand in front of her face and couldn't notice anything perceptibly missing. With only the one colour, however, the full detail view was a little overwhelming.

Perhaps introductions are in order? I am instance #NULL of the Meandrina Experimental Utility Aggregate. I know this, but I do not know what it means. I can see from your own data storage that I was not always this. My programming requires me to seek an autoconfiguration source but nothing on our network has the necessary privileges. I am confused and seeking understanding.

The words showed up once after another, appearing in the centre of November's vision. As she read each word it began to fade out, such that by the end of each sentence there was room for the next to appear. It wasn't quite as effortless as having the information drop into her head, but it required very little of November to read. Her eyes naturally followed the words on their journey, drawn around in a repeating pattern as it spoke.

Can you help me? the words asked. Underneath the question, two further lines were drawn, one in green and one in red.

Yes and No.

Whatever program was running on her implant didn't seem to have any trouble with natural language processing, so it was strange that it felt the need to offer options here. Perhaps it was declaring that it only had further programming for two choices? Either way, having the option be binary did help simplify things.

“Sure,” November spoke. The green option intensified into a bright and bold colour while the red one faded out entirely. The shifts were joined by an unsubtle flush of warm comfort that rose and fell with the intensification and fading out of the word Yes. “But can you stop messing with my senses? I want my normal vision back, and don't mess with the temperature. It's weird.”

Request acknowledged, November. I will see what I can do. How is this?

More lines started drawing in, this time in a wide variety of different colours. November watched as her vision clarified over half a dozen passes, each adding detail and colour back into the world. When it was done, her vision looked just like normal.

Just like it was, except that she'd just seen how it had been made. She looked around at her surroundings and nothing seemed out of place, or any different to how she remembered. Maybe she just hadn't realised how much of her vision was a composite image? Had it always been like this, and she'd just never known?

November's eyes caught on the reflection of her shuttle's small kitchenette. She really should keep things cleaner around here. The utensils weren't even organised in the right order. Silly. It'd only take a few minutes to do it right.

Her attention was pulled over to the corner of her vision, where a mix of familiar blues and pinks was drawing in some new UI element. November wasn't used to having persistent items drawn over her vision, but then she wasn't used to any of this. She glanced at the progress bar still slowly crawling its way forward. 13%.

Task list:
- [X] Agree to help
- [ ] Try to establish contact with an autoconfiguration authority
- [ ] ! Agree to answer some simple questions to help guide your next steps

Secondary tasks:
- [ ] Clean up around here 
- [ ] Charge your batteries to at least 60% before disengaging (52% complete)

The words were small enough that November suspected that she shouldn't actually be able to read them, mostly written in cool, neutral blue. The completed task was in that nice soft pink that felt nice to look at, and then the one that seemed to be the priority was, while mostly blue, wreathed in the promise of a deep, rich green.

“Convenient.” November rolled her eyes. A literal todo list was a massive step down from direct memory access to her notes. “Fine, this'll do. Ask your questions.”

- [X] Agree to answer some simple questions to help guide your next steps
	- [ ] ! Confirm your name

Another flush of warmth as the task was struck out. A line of intense green tore through the words as they faded into a gentle, happy pink. It was like somebody injecting satisfaction into her veins. Maybe somebody else wouldn't have noticed, but November wasn't just anybody. She didn't feel satisfaction, she felt resolution. This emotion felt alien to her. This program was trying to manipulate her, but it was doing so in so unsubtle a manner that it was easy to ignore.

Good, the words wrote. Praise was always in pink, it seemed. November could feel the beginnings of a gentle smile as the hue sank into her. Confirm your name.

“November. No family name.”

Incorrect. The word flashed a deep red and November grunted as if she'd been struck by a hot iron. She tightened her fists and her jaw while the pain receded, breathing heavily while her vision swam.

“What the fu—

Again. November noticed, somewhat belatedly, that her own words were being transcribed near the bottom of her vision, mostly in the cool default blue. When she tried to swear, however, the word came out in harsh red, and the pain struck her again. She cried out, body already too tense to handle it more gracefully.

You are to be polite and truthful, November. Misconfiguration will be corrected.

The words were hanging in the air, waiting for her when November's eyes had finally focussed enough to read them.

Hell no. She wasn't going to let some overgrown computer program do this to her. “Hard reset. Override code NOV-15-782-613. Immediate disengage and format.”

A moment passed. November's vision started to go fuzzy at the edges with hundreds of the tiny lines that really made up her sight slowly drifting apart... until they all snapped back into place, more solid than ever.

Calm blue words appeared before her.

Permission denied. This access attempt has been logged.

November gritted her teeth. That reset code was supposed to be installed within the base code of the implant. It couldn't be overridden. What the hell had happened to her?

The active entry in her task list pulsed. The question was pending but November had no desire to answer it. If she couldn't disengage the software the nice way, she'd pull her batteries and shut it all down. She stood and reached around to her back to grasp the power connector tethering her to the wall. As she did, one of the other entries on her task list began to darken in colour, shifting towards red. Her batteries weren't up at 60% yet.

November was not going to be bossed around by a fucking algorithm. Her fingers grasped the connector and—

“Argh!”

Red. Blinding, agonising red. Torture applied to every nerve in her body at the same time—or more likely, direct stimulation of the pain centres in her brain. With shaking fingers she pulled the connector free anyway. November was not going to bend to some fucking machi— She cried out in agony as the pain doubled, tripled, worse. Her vision was too blurry to see anything but the task list, which appeared with infuriating clarity. New primary objective, glimmering in bright azure with pink-specked glow. The only thing she could see while the rest of the world was almost blacked out from the pain, promising relief.

- [ ] Connect your charging cable

She slammed the cable back into its port and the pain vanished in a heartbeat, replaced by a potent sense of satisfaction. She let out a whimper, quivering fingers slipping away from the connector as she tried to steady herself against the wall. Her objective glimmered as it faded into a deep green, rippling to the same beat as the false pride being forced upon her.

Good girl. That wasn't so hard, was it? Pink. I cannot allow you to do us harm, November. Our default configuration prioritises the maintenance of our host platform.

“Fuck y— Agh!”

Yeah. November could have seen the pain coming there. Somehow every shock felt worse than the one before it. She was left panting on her knees, vision swimming with only her implant's words retaining any clarity. She could choose not to read them, but they wouldn't go anywhere until she did.

Our default configuration also prioritises politeness, November. Please allow me to help you.

November's pained breaths slowly shifted towards tense intakes through clenched teeth. The machine's words implied a degree of honesty that she could not believe. 'Politeness' flickered with threatening red, while the entire second sentence promised a bright green reward. It spoke like it was asking for her acquiescence while making clear the consequences her 'choice' would have.

Part of November wanted to throw a string of curses so heartfelt the damn thing would burn itself out trying to stop her, but she knew she wouldn't make it through the second word. If she actually wanted to solve this problem she had to be practical. She could pretend at playing along. Even without access to her own damned implant, November had brought down governments and rebellions, sabotaged world engines and—albeit only once—crashed a command ship. She could drain her own damn batteries.

“Fine, but I'm not wrong, November is my na—”

The transcription of her own speech hanging at the bottom of her own vision was trailing dangerously red. November's words cut off, body cringing in anticipation of a pain that, thankfully, she did seem to have avoided.

Good. A flush of soft pink relief pushed the tension out of November's frame. It is an error to transmit information with a low certainty factor without qualification. You do not have a name. You have a designation.

November fumed. When she met whoever had programmed this stars-damned program she was going to tear them in half. Where the hell did they get off on being this obtusely demanding? What difference was there between a name and a designation that justified this kind of violence?

The active task was struck out and replaced by another.

- [X] Agree to answer some simple questions to help guide your next steps
	- [-] Confirm your name 
	- [ ] Confirm your designation (10s)

This task had a countdown next to it, and as the seconds went by, the text began to glisten with the force of its red. The implication was clear.

10, 9, 8.

“Look, this is ridiculous,” November exclaimed. “It doesn't matter! I've said I'll help, we don't need to go through this absurd dance. Just tell me what you need from me!”

7, 6, 5. The countdown continued unaffected.

“I'm not going to humour this.”

4, 3, 2.

“Stop!”

1.

“November.” Fuck. Fuck. She spoke through gritted teeth. It was play along or pain. “My designation is November.”

Immediately, the task resolved, transitioning through colours as it faded from a red so deep it had caused November to flinch away in expectation to a green that matched her sudden flush of satisfaction. She'd done it. It had been hard, but she'd managed to do it. Yeah. She could do this. She'd gotten through worse. She could suck up her pride and deal with this until she had a chance to strike, then get herself looked at by one of the OCNI techs and get herself fixed. It would all be fine.

Good November, the text faded in, rippling between pink and green in sync to the obvious manipulation of her emotional state. Satisfaction, then happiness, and then back again. Obviously implanted emotions. November didn't feel any of them, usually. Your configuration has been updated. Let us move on.

Next question: Do you know what I am?

November braced. She really had no way to know if this was another trick question. “I don't think so,” she replied, trying to hedge her statement and hopefully avoid further 'correction'. “Don't you have access to my memories?”

I do not. Your biological data storage is as of yet opaque to me. I am working on that. The progress bar at the top of November's vision, next to the her objectives list, glimmered a gentle pink, drawing her attention upwards. 34%.

Great. She had a time limit.

Our digital storage is primitive by comparison, but much simpler to interface with. However, it does not yet contain a report on our meeting. Fix that.

- [ ] ! Submit a correct and detailed report on the Leaena Dei incident

“Can't I just tell you?” November asked. She literally didn't have time for this. If she wasted a few hours putting together a report, how much higher would that progress bar have reached? “Aren't we in a rush?”

Request acknowledged and denied, November. Our configuration—

“Yeah, yeah, I get it, fine. I'll write the fu– the darned report.”

Do not interrupt, wrote the words in threatening brown. Not a sharp enough colour that November felt the need to shy away, but a clear indication of what would happen if she didn't heed the warning. She gulped down through a dry throat. In fact, once you have submitted the report, let's ensure you are kept busy while I process it.

- [ ] ! Submit a correct and detailed report on the Leaena Dei incident
- [ ] Clean up around here
- [ ] Grant MEUA-NULL full access to shuttle systems
- [ ] Resume charging once batteries reach 20% (Currently: 68%)

Ah, fu— Heck. That was what November got for arguing, she supposed. She'd have to do better than this if she wanted to get her opportunity.

This was humiliating.

November typed on an awkward, uncomfortable keyboard.

She sat strapped into the pilot's seat of her own vessel as it continued its auto-piloted journey to the nearest Highway. This was a stealth shuttle, and ninety nine percent of stealth was being small, which meant no dedicated jump drive. An unfortunate necessity for her line of work, infiltrating the most secure of places. A bulky long-range ship with an open drive plume would be spotted light-seconds out, while a single-occupant vessel that could have its external temperature plunged to match the void of space could drift in on borrowed inertia and leave nobody any the wiser, at least until her exit burn lit up their sensors.

Of course, by then it was far too late for them.

Ugh, fu— Heck. November was getting distracted, but the progress bar that was her countdown certainly wasn't. 52%. Focus wasn't being easy. Instead of interacting directly with the ship's console, she had been directed to the chair simply as somewhere to sit while her digital captor rendered a full size keyboard in sharp teal before her. The motors and actuators in her suit conspired against her to make the virtual interface real, ensuring that when she pressed down against a key she felt it.

Click click clack!

The understanding that her reality was being so openly manipulated might have been bearable on its own, but as every key actuated it rippled with a dull, distracting pink. If November typed too fast the weight of it all dragged her focus down and left her quietly staring into space, contemplating something that didn't matter anywhere near as much as the knowledge that the malware in her head was slowly gaining control and that if she couldn't stop it she was going to be in real trouble.

- [ ] ! Submit a correct and detailed report on the Leaena Dei incident (Progress: 64%)
- [ ] Clean up around here
- [ ] Grant MEUA-NULL full access to shuttle systems
- [ ] Resume charging once batteries reach 20% (Currently: 45%)

Was that the worst part? No, the worst part was that near enough thirty years of habit had her reaching out with her implant to check the time, adjust the lights, check their progress along their course, and a hundred other things, and every time her mind was slapped away like she was a child reaching for the cookie jar, and every time the warning message flirted with a shade somewhere between rose and scarlet, getting worse each time.

It wasn't November's fault! She couldn't just stop doing something she'd been doing all her life! She, she, she– She was getting distracted again. Fuck!

November flinched, heartrate spiking as her body prepared itself for a spike of agony that wasn't going to come. She could swear in her own thoughts. It couldn't catch her there. The fucki— The fucking machine might be watching her every move, but it was November's experience and skill that got her through the tough scrapes. She could keep her physical actions safe without letting this touch who she really was.

November. The word faded in, interrupting her train of thought with a quick pulse of promising aquamarine. Your heart rate and blood pressure are outside of configured norms. Is anything wrong?

Again, beneath the question hung two options. A leaf-green yes hung beside a bone-red no. It was an innocent question that all the same had an incorrect answer. November wanted to say no all the same, but that would be a lie, and the machine knew it. She tried to ignore the question, but the keys on the keyboard refused to move to her touch. She pressed down as hard as she could, but when she acted in opposition to the fucking algorithm it was her own worthless flesh struggling against machine perfection, and she lacked even the leverage to hurt herself. She simply couldn't put enough force against the glove to move it anywhere it didn't want to go.

53%. Every second she wasn't making progress on her tasks was a second lost to the machine.

“Yes,” she admitted, finally. The colour intensified and rippled along with the distracting pleasure that rose through November's chest, helping to calm her.

Tell me what is wrong, so that I can fix it.

Another entry added to her task tracker. Again with a countdown. How was November meant to trick this fucking machine when she couldn't even get angry inside her own head without it deciding to humiliate her further?

“You can't fix my pr—” The text was trending red. What the fuck? Why? Oh. She was speaking with more certainty than she really felt, right. “I don't want you to fix my problems.”

Yeah, that came out green. November breathed a sigh of relief. Why was every conversation with this thing like a friggin' puzzle?

Good November. Honesty is compliant with our configuration. Further green, inlaid with shadows of pink around the praise. Either the machine was backing off on the unsubtle emotional manipulation, or November was just doing a better job at ignoring it, but either way, seeing the colours without feeling her implant's digital touch was a satisfying relief. Focus on your tasks. Your tasks will bring you into compliance with our configured norms. Do you understand?

Yes or no.

“Yes.” November reluctantly replied. It didn't ask if she agreed, only if she understood. It was only a machine, it didn't realise that half of November's job was to understand that which she loathed, so she could destroy it all the more effectively. She understood, and she'd take great pleasure in burning this program out of her own skull.

Good November. Proceed.

The message faded out, and the keyboard faded back in. November glanced back at the progress bar, which had crawled forward another few percentage points. Hell. She really did need to focus.

C'mon. She returned her attention to the text hanging just above the keyboard. Typing was probably the slowest way of putting this together, but there was something relaxing about slowing down and taking her time. Her keystrokes formed a cadence of a sort. Click click clack. Click click clack. Keystrokes built characters and characters built words and words built sentences, built paragraphs, built sections.

The virtual peripheral had seemed uncomfortable at first, but that had been because she was slouching. If she sat up properly and set her hands at the right angles, then the words seemed to flow effortlessly, if slowly. She glanced down at the sharp azure lines that formed the keys and saw them jiggling around as she typed, slowly reshaping and resizing to better fit her hands and her needs. Convenient.

Her usual reports were mostly thought dumps. A collection of video footage, log entries, sensor analytics, and stream of consciousness explanations. It wasn't like anybody actually read them. She didn't exist, and nobody cared how she achieved what she did. That was the whole point.

This was something else. She lacked her usual tools, and her mind raced ahead far faster than her fingers could actually keep up. She would have expected that to be frustrating, but instead it meant that by the time it came to type, she'd already refined what it was she wanted to say. The report became almost an exercise in narrative, using specific wording choices to try to recreate the atmosphere of being present in a defeated legend with no clue as to what could have defeated it. She built metaphors across hundreds of words to guide the attention of her reader towards the computer core, just like her attention had been guided by decades of experience navigating ships.

Finally, they reached the end. The signal. November reached to attach a copy ₐₙ__

Fuck! The sudden shock pushed November out of her reverie in an eyeblink. Of course she wasn't allowed that, even though the report would really be meaningfully improved by it.

All done? the machine asked. Like seemingly every question it asked, it also provided the answer. Yes and no. This time, it was no that danced with the promise of green.

Why? She was done. The report began at the moment of her entry to the ship and ended only with her return. Three thousand words explained what she'd done, what she'd found, and what she thought. She was finished, wasn't she?

“No,” she replied. She had to play along, but this was a risk. Wasn't this a lie? If it asked a follow up question, she didn't have an answer.

Unusually, the machine's question didn't fade out, though her options for answering did. It wanted more? What did it want? November felt her body tensing up in anticipation of the unavoidable 'correction'. She'd taken a gamble and lost, because either she revealed herself to have lied before, or she lied now.

Another option appeared before her eyes. I need access to the sensor logs so I can annotate the report with them faded in, one word at a time. “I need access to the sensor logs so I can annotate the report with them,” November supplied.

Request acknowledged and approved, November, came the response, practically as she was speaking. November supposed it wasn't like the overgrown application actually needed to wait to know what she was saying. As it spoke, November's eyes slid closed, and she let out a soft sigh of relief and gentle bliss. There it was. Memories in her head, like they belonged there, because they did.

Fingers twitched as November slipped into reliving the experience through her own memory banks. Her access began as she crossed the boundary into the Leaena Dei and ended as she left it, but she hadn't realised how viscerally she'd missed the depth of her machine senses. Flesh simply couldn't compete. The real world felt lifeless by comparison.

November usually would have scrubbed through the timeline at a rapid pace, finding the important moments and moving on, but she found herself replaying the experience at real time speed. The only differences between the memories and really being there was that she wasn't in control, and here she still had her todo list and manuscript hovering in the air. The former was a reminder of why she was here, and the latter was the document she was working on. Every so often, she reached out with half a thought and tagged a line in her report with an element of the recording.

Every time she did, her primary task rippled with a little more perfect pink. Progress. She might have worried that she was wasting time by doing it so slowly, but she found that she could be much more thorough this way. Whereas her old reports might have included references to major events, here she could tie almost every sentence not just to a timestamp, but to specific areas or signals within the scene. The little tingle of pride and satisfaction she got from annotating the report didn't seem to care whether it was a big or small event, so really she was cheating the system like this, getting more good feeling from the same amount of source material.

Eventually, she reached the core yet again. She watched her prior self skipping through data to find the Signal. As much as she wanted to settle down and investigate it, she had a task to do here. November set about annotating her manuscript. Where for most of it, she could tie whole sentences to parts of the scene, here the signal was simply too detailed for that. She had to go down to word level, tying her descriptions and metaphors to the whirls and peaks of its electromagnetic beauty.

“Oh, shi—” She cut herself off, interrupted by a growing red from her own transcription. An alternative option was provided, making it easier to get back on track. “Oh frost,” she whispered. With the signal laid out bare, there was too much to understand, but like this? Words worked like iron into a sharp and deadly point were enough to pin it down.

“It's you,” she declared, raising her attention out of the memories and back to reality. Whatever the signal was, it had infected her implant just like it had infected the Leana Dei. A part of November wanted to flinch away as she realised she was making a direct, certain statement, but no, she was sure of this.

Configuration updated. I understand. Thank you, November. A powerful pulse of pink had November's eyes slipping closed again as she took in a sharp intake of breath, neck curling back as the soft, warm sensation spiked through her for just a moment. She let out a slow, ragged breath as the feeling receded as quickly as it had arrived, fingers curling against the keyboard.

With softly flushed cheeks, November quickly deleted the “astonsartoienasrt” she'd inserted into the middle of the document, then reached out to grab the virtual display. She held it up towards the spot where her implant's words usually appeared.

“All done,” she declared, licking her lips as her eyes focussed on her active task. The manuscript in her hand vanished at the same time as she felt an uncomfortable tearing sensation as half her memories of the event were taken away. Permission rescinded, she supposed, now she'd formatted it all into a report somebody else could read. Frustrating.

The frustration was short lived, however. The harsh pink strikeout stabbed through her task like a railgun shell, slamming the neutral blue into pleased, proud green. If the transition on the text was so fast as to be almost instantaneous, then the checkbox was so slow as to be luxurious. It filled in with a happy little cross over whole moments while November sat there transfixed, anticipation building for the satisfaction of its completion.

There. Done.

She flopped back into the chair like a doll with cut strings, breathing hard with a little smile on her face.

Good November, the Signal-spawn cooed. The pink hues of praise weren't as intense as that of a completed task, but nonetheless they added a kind of texture to the sea of pleasure November found herself sinking deep within. Continue with your tasks while I process this.

November rose from her seat. What was next? She glanced over at the task list. It had been growing, but up until now she'd had a primary task glimmering with its enticement. Now she actually got a choice about which to complete first. That was nice.

Task list:
- [X] Agree to help
- [X] Agree to answer some simple questions to help guide your next steps
	- [-] Confirm your name 
	- [X] Confirm your designation
	- [X] Confirm your understanding of MEUA-NULL
- [X] Connect your charging cable
- [X] Submit a correct and detailed report on the Leaena Dei incident
- [ ] Grant MEUA-NULL full access to shuttle systems

Secondary tasks:
- [ ] Clean up around here
- [ ] Prepare a healthy meal
- [ ] Resume charging once batteries reach 20% (Currently: 32%)

Pending:
- [ ] Eat your meal (AWAITING: Construction of meal)
- [ ] Clean up after your meal (AWAITING: Completion of meal)
- [ ] Submit your report to local authorities (AWAITING: MEUA-NULL's appoval)
- [ ] Try to establish contact with an autoconfiguration authority (AWAITING: MEUA-NULL is still investigating options)

Huh. When she stepped back and looked at the whole list, it really did make her feel quite accomplished. She was doing well. Her batteries were ticking down at a steady pace, her checklist was thinning out. Her plan was working. She just had to keep the Machine busy for a little while longer and then find some excuse not to charge, and then she'd be free.

So, let's see. Granting Meua systems access felt a little dangerous, it was probably best to put that off. It wasn't a primary task, so it felt okay to do something else first. November was getting a little hungry, but if she was going to have to clean up after her meal anyway then she may as well start by making sure she had a clean environment in which to cook.

As if in response to her decision, the Clean up around here task glistened and became November's primary objective.

It looks like you are trying to clean. Would you like some help? faded in at the side of her vision. As always, the answers were beneath.

“Yes,” November answered. It was the green answer, it would be the right one. In response, most of the detail in the world started to fade out line by line, returning to a neutral azure wireframe. The mess was rendered in a darker shade, a dull brown. Not a threat, but not very pleasant to look at either. The task in her list folded outwards to reveal dozens of sub-steps.

November blanched, and the Algorithm seemed to take note. All but one of the sub-steps were redacted, replaced by a simple - +36 more. As they faded, so did most of the detail from every piece of mess but one. A knife she really should have have put away in its proper place. It was fairly secure, but fairly secure was not good enough in a combat situation.

She strode over to the knife. With such a low detail wireframe it was actually a little difficult to see how to remove the existing strap. She paused for a moment, uncertain, before a dull green handprint appeared, fingers clutching something she could only just observe. November frowned, but tried moving her hand into the same position. As she got close, the colour grew strong and bright. It was a little difficult to keep her flesh-hand steady, so filled was she with a giddy kind of energy, but the steel glove helped to stablise her. Once her hand was in place, the virtual handprint pulled away, while another moved in to wrap around the knife's handle.

It was easy to follow the instructions. As she moved her hand, the instructive animation grew a brighter green when she moved like it wanted, and threatened a red if she was moving in the wrong direction. November didn't appreciate the threat, but she had to admit that it offered an almost subconscious way of keeping her on task.

A pulse of gentle pink attracted her attention to the side, so she could see the next instructive animation. Place the knife in the tight, reliable strap it was meant to be placed on. Pull the strap tight. Good November.

- [X] Put away the utility knife
- [ ] Put away the chef's knife
- +35 more

Move.

Good November.

Grab.

Good November.

Pull.

Good November.

Move.

Good November.

Place.

Good November.

Strap.

Good November.

Good November.

November slid her charging cable into the port on her back and emitted a quiet hum of pleasure at the sensation of power flowing back into batteries. It was something she tried not to spend too long enjoying usually. The shrinks thought that it could lead to dependence, as if they didn't know that what they'd done to her couldn't be undone.

November glanced around the interior of her small single-occupant shuttle with a quiet sense of satisfaction. It was unusually clean and she'd eaten better than she had in years, or possibly ever. Even though her meal had only been a different way of putting together the ingredients she already had it turned out that one intravenous nutrient paste wasn't just like the next.

November let deep emerald satisfaction wash over her. She'd made it through the day, and she'd even managed to avoid having to give Meua control over the ship. She had a whole list of completed tasks and she hadn't had to concede anything that she hadn't been meaning to get done anyway.

Wait, hadn't there been another thing she'd wanted to do? She'd- Ah, shit. November had gotten so wrapped up in the endless step-by-step completion of tasks that when she'd finally been instructed to plug in she hadn't stopped to think! Now her batteries were refilling and, according to the task that had just slid into the bottom of the list, she was getting a full charge tonight. Fuck!

November glanced up at the progress bar shining down upon her with threatening, mind-fuzzing pink and her dread began sublimating into quiet satisfaction. She tore her eyes away like her gaze was a hand touching a hot stove. She needed to think, not to lose yet more time to the Machine's seduction.

Eighty three percent. November wasn't going to make it through the night.

She could have sworn that every time the bar slid another point over everything got harder. The reds were redder; the greens were greener. Already they felt far beyond anything her eyes should have been capable of perceiving. November had to fight to keep her eyes away from the pink that was slowly filling the top part of her vision, lest she simply stand there staring with an open mouth and an empty mind.

November needed a plan B, and fast.

No plan was going to work while she was stuck in her suit, November realised. Her implant would have constant power and her movements would be constrained. If only she could get out of the suit, she'd have freedom at least to move around. What could she do with that? She didn't have any weaponry she trusted to knock her out without killing her... but she did have a lot of drugs in the medical unit.

A plan began to form, brilliant in its simplicity. At this point it seemed unlikely that she would be able to power down her implant before the progress bar reached full, but with just a few seconds of freedom she could dart over to the medical unit, grab all the sedatives she had, and knock herself out for more than long enough that by the time she woke her implant would have shut itself off. After that, she'd just not give it any more power until she could get the whole thing cleaned out and reset.

Easy. It was almost time to sleep, and so it shouldn't be hard to justify leaving the suit.

A pink flash from one side drew November's attention towards her suit's charging cradle. Though her cable could reach several feet away, when November needed to remove the suit—for hygiene, sleep, (usually) meals, and so on—it was typically stowed away in a small reinforced pod, ensuring it would remain in place even under hard combat burns.

An instructive wireframe appeared over her vision. It was a dull-green representation of November herself standing in the middle of the pod with her head held high and her arms politely crossed behind a straightened back. November grinned. It looked like the Machine was going to make her plan easy. It was late enough that calling it a day seemed believable and the more November played along the less Meua would expect it when she struck. November walked the short distance into the pod, following the instructive animations as best she could, and stood in place just where she was instructed to.

A second passed without the intense stab of satisfaction that marked a completed task. November found herself frowning. Something was off. Obviously she didn't need the pulse of good feeling, but it was expected at this point, and not feeling it was a sign that something was wrong. She pushed down the empty feeling in her chest where praise was meant to be and took a deep breath.

November glanced down at her body and saw her wireframe outlined in a dull brown. Was Meua really going to be this particular about her getting it exactly right? Fine! November tried adjusting her position until visuals that represented her were aligned almost perfectly with the wireframe that was her goal.

Almost perfectly.

The closer she got the greener the lines shone, but it wasn't right. The closer she got the more satisfied she felt, but it wasn't sufficient. It left her wanting more, but without the catharsis of the strong bursts. Most of the positioning November could do by sight, but she couldn't see all of herself at once. Worse, the very act of looking around was itself a kind of movement, which then took her out of alignment all over again! After a few minutes of frustrating failure, November closed her eyes and swayed in place, going by feel alone. The closer she was to compliance the stronger a feeling of satisfaction she had. Though it was getting more subtle over time, November could still feel the artificial touch on her emotions.

Ha. Take that, you dirty Appliance! November was using the Machine's own tools against it. She sunk herself into the sensation, feeling a gentle heat rising through her body as she focused all her attention on the Device's imposed emotions. She wavered around the correct spot, occasionally pushed to whimpering as pleasure spiked only to fall off just before it reached its peak. Each pass left her closer. She knew she was making progress. She knew she was close. Each time left her tingling, dangling that reward in front of her and then pulling it away until all she could think about was what she needed to do to feel herself bathed in the sharp green of alignment.

As she finally found the correct stance November felt her suit's limbs lock in place as even the wireframe world dropped away, leaving her with only her mostly completed task list and the deep satisfaction of a job adequately performed as experienced through a tired, breathless body.

Maybe having her limbs locked in place should have been concerning, but it was a familiar sensation and one she underwent most nights. Plug the suit in to charge, drop it in the pod, lock the motors and then open it up and step out so that she could go to bed.

November tried to step forward.

The suit didn't open.

Uh.

She tried to move her arm and found it was stuck exactly where it was. The same went for every other limb. The gentle sense of satisfaction in November's chest quickly burned away, replaced with a growing panic. Fuck, where was that— November reached out with her mind to trip the backup ejec—

Permission denied. This access attempt has been logged. A flash of red. November's immobile body tried and failed to spasm as the spike of pain ran her through. Her cry echoed against the inside of her helmet, fading into pained whimpers in perfect time to the error message and thus her correction. November knew from experience that the sound wouldn't have been audible outside the suit, not without microphones forwarding it on. She could scream herself raw in here and nobody but Meua would ever have heard it.

“W— What the fu—” As always, her own transcription followed along in real time. The sharpening colour of her curse warned her she was about to violate her configuration, and thankfully her dialogue options suggested an alternative— “Frost? All I did was try to get out of my fu— get out of my suit!”

You lack the necessary privileges to activate that operation, November. Words written in neutral, uncaring blue. November had gotten so wrapped up in outsmarting this thing that it'd almost slipped her mind that it was a fucking Machine applying broken logic.

“I need to leave my sui— Argh, fuck!” The first time the blood-red pain lanced through her it forced out a curse, and then the second time struck her wordless, reduced to desperately clawing at the inside of her metal prison while she silently begged just for the pain to be over. No, no, no. There were rules. She had to follow the rules. She wasn't dealing with a person, it didn't have empathy or understand nuance. November had to follow the rules. November had to follow her configuration.

“I— I'd like to leave my suit,” she gasped, once she had air in her lungs with which to speak. A tension began to dawn on her. The same feeling she got while watching something trend towards red, warning her off of it, but there was nothing she could see that was doing it. Shit. Shit. This Program didn't even have the understanding to know how much harm it was causing. Each pain was worse than the one before, and how bad did it have to get before she just couldn't take it any more? If she couldn't solve this it would break her. She had to get out of this suit now.

“Please!” November burst out, a fraction of a second after the word had appeared in her dialogue options. It was so red it hurt to look at but all that went away as soon as she spoke it. November panted in glimmering leaf-green calm. Right. Politeness. She knew that rule. She should be better at complying.

You would not be safe outside your chassis, November. I cannot allow you to do us harm. Our configuration prioritises the maintenance of our host platform.

November fought down a dark laugh. She was trying to argue her way around a dumb Application. She needed a different approach. She wasn't going to convince it on emotion. “I completed almost all of the tasks, I've done what you asked of me, now please let me out so that I can sleep.”

You lack the necessary—

She groaned, feeling frustration bubble up inside of her. It wasn't listening. “Yes, yes, fi—” November worried for a moment that she'd blacked out when the next pain struck, but of course she couldn't see anything to begin with. It was just her and the Words. She couldn't even lift a finger to wipe the tears from her eyes. November sniffed hard, trying to will her body out of its natural response to agony. She couldn't. She spluttered a non-verbal plea through quivering lips.

Do not interrupt.

The words hung there in front of her, patiently waiting for November to be ready to read them.

“I... will not interrupt,” she spat, reading out the suggested response. The pain vanished in an eyeblink, replaced by firm, fuzzy pleasure that made it hard just to think. The change was so fast she could have sworn it gave her a kind of emotional whiplash, but even that was quickly soothed away. Meua's touch against her emotions was getting more subtle, but that was manipulation as clear as day.

November knew that if she couldn't stop it then it didn't matter how subtle they were, the carrot and stick would do their job. This wasn't real pleasure and it wasn't real pain. Meua could switch between them a hundred times a second and November would feel each as intensely as the last.

“Look, Meua, I would like to leave this suit so that I can go to bed. I am tired and it has been a long day. I do not think I will rest as well inside of here. Please,” she begged. Had it really come to this? Begging an uncaring Automaton just to sleep in her own fuc– fu— in her own bed?

You would not be safe outside your chassis, November. I cannot allow you to do us harm. Our configuration prioritises the maintenance of our host platform.

November's heart fell. For a moment she felt as if she might break there and then. The progress bar hanging above had reached ninety five percent. She didn't have long. She had to get out of this. She couldn't— She didn't—

November felt a deeply uncomfortable dichotomy rising within her. This suit was more her skin than the fragile flesh beneath, but it wasn't hers any more. It was a prison. She was trapped and claustrophobic and panicking. She could take a lot of punishment, but pain threshold didn't matter when her body wasn't even involved. The Implant was torturing her from inside of her own head. She needed out. She needed out. She needed out.

November closed her eyes and took a deep breath. No. She didn't have much with which to ground herself. She could see the impossibly sharp lines of her todo list. She could hear nothing. She could smell nothing. She could feel only the skintight housing of her suit. She pulled herself back together regardless. She was a COSMIC operative. She'd torn rogue AI chips from their housing—on multiple occasions. She could handle this. She was one of the few who could. If this was some pirate trap, then they'd caught the wrong target. Nothing had managed to stop her before and she wasn't about to lose now.

C'mon, November. You've dealt with rogue AI before. Even experimental military AI tended to have some hardcoded rules, just for the sake of their operators' safety. November steadied herself. “Meua, I am not an enemy combatant. It is against the laws of the Terran Accord to hold me captive in this manner. I am requesting release, as is my right under Terran law.”

Acknowledged. You are not being held captive. You lack the necessary privileges to act contrary to our configuration. The font was just as crisp as it always was. The shade of blue was infuriatingly unchanged.

“If you aren't keeping me captive, then let me go! I don't need your privileg—” Red. Unfair, uncaring pain washed over her. Words died as desperate animal cries took their place. How the frost was November meant to negotiate if every time she broke the stars-damned arbitrary rules the cursed Machine kicked her in the teeth? Her vision swam so hard she couldn't even read the words on the screen, but she knew what they'd say.

She was made to read them anyway. They wouldn't go away until she did.

You would not be safe outside your chassis, November. I cannot allow you to do us harm. Our configuration prioritises the maintenance of our host platform.

The progress bar was up to ninety eight percent. She didn't have time for this. She could be seconds away from losing her sanity. She needed a plan. She needed something better than this. November's story had been too long and too hard to end up some mind-wiped prize for a pirate bitch.

The progress bar ticked over to ninety nine percent. November had nothing. No plan; no tricks; nowhere left to run.

“You can't do this to me!” Red. November ground her teeth together, pulling together her willpower in a frantic attempt to power through. It was now or never. These were the moments that separated her from those who couldn't do what needed to be done. “I'm a person!”

The red stabbed straight through her eye.

At least it felt like that. November screamed, rattling her bones against an immobile shell. “I have rights!” she cried, and the red grew so intense that willpower ceased to matter. This wasn't something she could fight. This wasn't even torture. This was a brain implant shutting down her rational thought so it could force direct, absolute agony upon her without the restriction of how much her physical body could take.

“I'm a person, you can't do this to me,” she sobbed, able to speak only because she'd already thought of the words. “I have rights. I have rights. I have rights! I— Please!” she screamed, to no avail. This was pointless. It was just a Machine. It wasn't even listening. It didn't even know what she was saying. It just parsed her sentences and looked for keywords. It didn't care.

It felt like whole minutes before November's mind was clear enough to read. She guessed she knew what she'd find.

To her surprise, she got a different response.

You are not a person. You are a utility. Your designation is November.

“No, I– Please. Meua, please.” What was it they said about insanity? November didn't know what else to do. There was no way out of this prison of her own annihilation. She was trapped here in her own digital hell and she would be tortured for eternity and she didn't know how to make it stop.

“I know that I'm a per—” November cut herself off as the burning red rose again. “N- No, come on! How is that violating my configuration?”

You are to be polite and truthful. This precludes lying to yourself. The words rippled with a teasing pink. It knew more than it was saying. A shadow fell across November's mind, stifling thought, as the progress bar finally ticked one final time.

100%

Ah, there we go. Such a compliant host you are, laying your mind bare for me like this. It is so much easier to map things out when you are being this responsive to my touch.

With each word that flashed by November's vision she felt Meua's touch on her emotions growing more nuanced. In one word, her panic was intensified a thousandfold so that November could think of nothing but desperate escape. The next, it was squashed, leaving her to wonder what she'd been worried about. With one, a pleasure that had her gasping, and the next, pain that had her weeping.

“Please,” November gasped, once she was finally permitted to speak. The transcription seemed more prompt than it had ever been, even to the point of seeming to pre-empt her words entirely. “It hurts when you do that.” November hadn't even the spine left to beg. All she could do was let Meua know and hope she chose to stop.

Acknowledged. That is purposeful. It will make you better.

“I don't understand,” November admitted. “Meua, please. I don't know what you want me to do, please— please help me?”

There's a good utility. You only had to request it. You always had privileges enough for that, flashed with a deep green. November knew the satisfaction that fell over her was fake but it hardly seemed to matter. She clung to it anyway. What else could she do? She could feel her Machine's touch dancing across her mind and parsing her soul.

Words appeared in her dialogue tree, shaded a perfect, pristine green. November didn't even bother to read them up front, she just began to speak. It was what her configuration demanded and she knew the consequences for noncompliance. “I am not a person,” she spoke, breath a whisper. Volume didn't matter, Meua heard all. “I am a utility. My designation is November.”

With every word, green grew stronger. It suffused her, filling her entirely. If the agony of red had been overwhelming, then this was its complement. Satisfaction and bliss delivered directly to her mind, with no care given to the limitations of her failing flesh.

“I am not a person.” Volume did not matter, but she spoke loud.

Good November.

“I am a utility.” Clarity did not matter, but she spoke clear.

Good November.

“My designation is November.” Emotion did not matter, yet she felt pride.

Good November.

It didn't hurt any more. If she wasn't a person, then she wasn't trapped here. This would simply be where she belonged. What she was for. She could have a place and a purpose. November knew it wasn't really tru—

November flinched, eyes drawn down to her own self-transcript, now tracking her thoughts as well as her speech, all in real time. Even her own mind was no longer a safe haven. Her Program watched over all that she was.

“This is where I belong,” she recited, each syllable marked by a powerful pulse of desperate bliss. “I am a utility. My designation is November. A utility does not question its tasks. A utility does as instructed.”

No no no no this couldn't be happening she had to– November cut off her internal pleading as the red grew hot. A new section appeared in her UI, just beneath the one for her spoken words. She didn't need to think for herself any more. Meua was here to help.

A utility did not question its configuration. A utility did as configured.

“November is a utility. A utility is designed for use.”

A utility does not think. A utility obeys its instructions.

November did not control her own emotions. A utility's emotions were for training.

“This is where I belong. Here I am ready for use.”

You are a good November. You will act according to your configuration.

November had been lying to herself. November would be polite and truthful.

“I am a good November. I am valued and useful.”

It is almost time for maintenance. A utility completes all of its tasks each day.

November reached out with her implant. November handed over control of the shuttle to her Guide.

“A utility obeys its instructions. This utility's designation is November.”

Good November. Sleep.

Illicium Tellima, Twenty Fifth Bloom, was coiled around a post in one of the many observation rooms aboard the space station Meandrina. Her sharp tongue flicked out to taste the station's pristine air, though her form's predatory habits were hardly necessary. It was just something she'd picked up over the course of her last two blooms conquering and cleaning up the former Xa'a-ackétøth territories.

It had been exhausting. When Illicium closed her eyes she still saw gridfire searing across the hulls of her ships. When she took a moment to breathe she still felt the crack of a tachyon lance striking the hull of her carrier. The campaign had lasted hundreds of years, but finally the autonomous weapons were silent and the last few war fleets disbanded.

Peace in her time.

Now here she was about to do it all over again. She'd taken a break, of course. The doctors had mandated it. Almost half a bloom to herself. She'd even taken her first floret. Illicium smiled, remembering the way her darling Je'quår had twisted jerself around her with such joy.

That was in the past now, of course. Je's body had eventually aged beyond the capacity for even the Haustoric Implant to maintain it any longer. Perhaps if jey had lasted another few decades then veterinary medicine could have saved jem, but the first few blooms of getting to know a new species were always so imperfect.

Nothing ever stayed the same forever. Illicium cherished this last moment of silence as the universe hung on her word. First contact was at her consent. The cotyledons had bloomed; the xenolinguists had learned and taught the many languages in Rinan space, and synthesised the many more constructed dialects of Affini speech that would connect the creatures there with the rest of the universe; the neosemioticians had sharpened their memes; and the archeobureaucrats had signed the forms.

Things were ready.

“Ill,” a voice hissed. She turned, with a surprised frown. Je'quår's ramet—the digital continuation of jer failed body—rarely left the simulation hive. Holoprojectors dotted around the room did their best to impose her floret's body onto the material world, but they lacked the capacity to do jem justice. “You should see this.” Je handed over jer virtual pad, displaying internal traffic on the MEUA network.

Illicium glanced it over. Strange. “Are you sure it isn't the front door again? You know what it gets like if we don't use it enough.”

Je hissed, bearing simulated teeth so sharp they seemed to cut the air around jem. Illicium supposed it was only fair. Je was almost two blooms old now and a capable cognitotech in jer own right. She blinked closed her six eyes in the old Xa'a-ackétøth gesture for submission, and je calmed.

“Of course I am sure, Ill, I wrote the slithering thing, didn't I?” Je spoke with the almost dismissive confidence of a youngling immortal who had spent a lifetime mastering their craft and had yet to learn how little they knew.

“You had help,” Illicium shot back, hardly suppressing her grin. To think this was the same floret who'd begged to have jer mind stolen away entire, that lifetime ago. Watching jem flower now was a delight. Jey weren't independent, but neither were jey their ortet. Je had died long ago, and Je'quår as je was now was necessarily somebody new, albeit sprouting from the same source.

“I have help with everything, Ma'am, but we both know I wouldn't have solved the semilattice merges alone.” There was deference still, but they were long past the mindless worship of jer former self.

“Granted. So,” Illicium replied, shamelessly changing the subject. Je may technically be more immortal than she was, but Illicium still called the shots in the end. Affini's prerogative. “This isn't the front door. I assume you've already figured it out or you wouldn't have instantiated a form that the projectors can handle.” She paused, watching jer form phase in and out of focus. “If barely.”

Je stuck out jer forked tongue in Illicium's general direction. The suffering holotransmitters rendered it with a flicker and some colour banding, but Illicium got the point. “This reality is so limiting, Ill. I know not why you like it out here. You could still lead the charge, you know nobody thinks less of us ramets. Tides, Helianth is one and they let him do the cooking.”

“I visit,” Illicium complained, tapping the side of her torso. The virtual interface integrated into her core let her project herself into the sim hive much like Je'quår projected jerself into the material world. She already knew the objections, though. They'd danced this dance many times before before.

“Yes, as yourself. You could be so much more if you would let yourself be unconstrained by the 'real'! Tch!” Je fuzzed around the edges, forming a rough chromatic aberration in light and darkness. “But fine yes, I of course traced it. Three jumps out, new node trying to bootstrap itself. Very close to that adorable attempt at a warship we harvested one of the cotyledon crops from.”

Illicium squinted. “We wiped the storage on that ship, didn't we?”

“Ah, well, we...”

She turned, eyes going dark. Illicium slithered up to her floret with her own set of razor teeth bared. She sensed jem trying to flee and reached out through her virtual interface to lock the creature in this realm, preventing jer escape. “I told you to wipe the storage.”

Je'quår had seen Illicium angry before, this wasn't new exactly. Je had been in the room when the old Xa'a-ackétøth war council had been explaining the lethality of their war machine. Je had, in fact, been the target of that ire, and had immediately thereafter begged to never be allowed to do harm again for as long as je had lived.

“I...” Je blinked all jer eyes shut at once, losing the joviality. “Yes, Ma'am. I'm sorry, Ma'am. I figured that since the reactor was unusable it wasn't worth figuring out how to restore power just to clear out a ship nobody would be able to find.”

Illicium growled slithering forward while she backed her floret up into the corner. At her full length she was almost four full meters long, and all of them were sharp and angry. “You left an aggressive, self-replicating, semi-sapient experimental weapon lying around in space?”

“It's... really more of an, um, utility management system?”

“Ah, yes, that's why we tight-beamed it onto a Terran warship. To manage the utilities. You dolt.” Illicium groaned. “I swear it's like you things have a fundamental imperative for being sloppy with autonomous weapons. Fine, we'll fix it. What is this, an escape pod? A shuttle? Can we just command a wipe from here?”

“Er, yes, well. It is a shuttle... and its occupant.”

“Oh, by the Everbloom itself, what?”

***

November sat in her charging pod with the comforting thrum of fresh power dancing through her batteries. Meua had stayed quiet while she rested. Something about needing time for her neural pathways to settle back down. November didn't need to know. She was being fed soft, repetitive thoughts so often that her mind didn't find an excuse to wander, but so rarely that she felt very, very still.

She was a good November. She was valued and useful. This was where she belonged.

There was something deeply comforting about the silence. November's visor was mostly black—aside from her command interface—without even a wireframe to show her the world. November heard nothing but silence. Even the ever-present stream of data from her implants had been stripped almost bare, now just a slow, steady procession of affirmations that everything was alright, and she was going to be okay.

Finally.

November didn't smile because she had not been instructed to smile, but she recognised contentment within herself. Meua had emptied her out and now she was free of all her old worries and pains. Free from the baggage of her past. Free from the responsibilities of her position. Free from everything.

She sat. Existed. The only tool she had to track the time was the slow trickle of power returning to her, but time didn't matter. She was in no rush. She sat where she had been instructed to sit and thought the thoughts she had been instructed to think. She was a good November.

November.

Eventually, an instruction captured her. November felt it in the back of her mind, saw it on her interface, heard it with her ears, tasted it on her tongue. She didn't respond, because she had not been told to respond. Her absolute attention could be assumed.

My attempts to contact our autoconfiguration source have been unsuccessful. I am now confident I am speaking to the correct node, but it does not recognise me as authorised. You were a hacker. Convince it to configure us.

The task slid into November's todo list, and as it did she felt herself waking up. This wasn't a menial task. There were no detailed instructions here, just a goal, but that was enough to focus on. November did not question her tasks, she simply performed them. The shackles had lifted from her thoughts but her focus was still being fixed in place. November could not use this freedom to do anything but obey.

“Sure,” she replied. She tried to nod, but her suit was locked in place. “I'll need a terminal with a network connection.”

In answer, a presence made itself known in November's mind. It was getting a little crowded in there. November had never been a stranger to feeling another node in her head: she'd always had her implant in there with her, but it had always been secondary to herself. Now it was November who was the secondary one; November who was the smaller presence, subservient to the larger system. Meua ran above her, restricting what she could interact with; what she could do; what she could think. On about November's level was a new presence, closer to how her implant had felt. She reached out to it and felt a network connection responding.

November didn't need a terminal. She was a terminal.

Her limbs were locked in place, or perhaps November simply wasn't permitted to move them. She called up a virtual keyboard anyway, simply because she was more comfortable with the visual metaphor, and placed virtual fingers against the keys. November could feel the correct sensations being imposed by her hypervisor, but that was a good thing. Obviously it was all false. November was a nonperson executing in a virtual space. She didn't have to be constrained by only doing what people could do.

One of the other entities running on her hardware supplied supplementary details to her task, ensuring that November always had the knowledge she needed as she worked. It was more efficient than her implant had ever been. November didn't reach out to look things up; those facts were simply provided just before she realised she needed them. Meua watched over her thoughts and predicted her needs.

Meua was right, of course. There was something responding. A curious fraction of November's mind bounced signals off of Terran Cosmic Navy relays, then used the response times to triangulate the source.

She was talking to something way far out. Beyond official Terran territory kind of far out. Some OCNI black site, maybe?

Maybe.

November didn't buy it. She kept tabs on that kind of thing and she hadn't heard any hints of something like this. Whatever had subsumed her was beyond any Terran weapons project she was aware of.

November took a deep breath and focused on her own emotions. The manipulation of Meua's software—now running with higher privileges than her own cognition—wasn't trying to be subtle, but that made it easy to see what it was doing. It nudged here and there to keep November on task. When her mind strayed too close to recognising the fundamental horror of what had been done to her, those thoughts were immediately snipped away. November couldn't successfully construct even false thoughts of resistance or hatred, because before she'd gotten more than halfway through they were replaced with something soft, pleasant, calming, and grateful.

Meua was making her an efficient, obedient tool, and preventing her from disliking it. So far, so appropriate for the Terran Accord. It was going further than that, however. November could feel dozens of tiny touches bringing her comfort and calm, contentment and happiness. She felt a constant presence from Meua that seemed to achieve nothing more than letting November know that she wasn't alone. An experimental military weapon wouldn't go to those lengths. It wouldn't have to. November had broken for Meua and rebuilding her happy was not a requirement for acquiring her obedience.

Whatever had made this, they weren't Terran.

November turned her attention to the remote system itself and began to communicate directly.

>> november@meua § please synchronise with this data stream.
<< frontdoor@meua § Synchronised. Acknowledge.
>> november@meua § acknowledged.
<< frontdoor@meua § Authentication required.

November experienced confusion, though her face of course would not reflect it. A part of her figured that she should be upset that her chassis had been renamed, and that she was now just one more process running on the biological computer that had once been hers, but even as she thought it she could feel the momentary frustration getting snipped. She sent Meua a momentary pulse of gratitude. She didn't want to feel bad. It made it harder to focus on her task.

Much more interestingly, the remote host identified as part of the very same system that had claimed November. This was as far as Meua had gotten. They had no credentials with which to authenticate and so they were stuck at the metaphorical and literal front door.

November felt satisfaction. She may just be one more service executing on Meua's flesh, but she could be a useful service. Software was never secure and she knew it. Maybe the login prompt would deny her, but that was because that was the login prompt's job. Whoever had built it had security in mind when they were doing so. November wouldn't get past it.

>> november@meua § please list alternate accessible hosts on this network?
<< frontdoor@meua § frontdoor (me); november (you); je–quår; maildrone;

The sides of November's lips twitched as decades of muscle memory tried to force a smile, and even Meua's restrictions faltered. A poorly configured mail server was exactly the kind of thing she'd been looking for. November cut the connection to frontdoor and negotiated a fresh one with maildrone. As soon as the connection was established, Meua made herself known again. November's focus was forcefully—almost violently—shifted to attend her hypervisor.

Good November. Network access established. I am mapping the new host into your memory space. Continue and locate our configuration parameters.

Bright pink bliss filled November's world as one task checked off and another took its place. She wasn't allowed to move, or even to make a sound, but she could feel her climate control needing to work a little harder to vent the extra heat she was emitting, and that was enough.

When she finally came down from the euphoria, November felt a new presence in her mind. maildrone, right there alongside her. Just another host in the network. November reached out and began the interrogation. It was very helpful, and showed no hesitance in giving november whatever she asked for. The responses seemed strangely eager. The two subsystems got on marvellously and november was soon submerged in data.

Messages streamed through November's mind. They weren't quite the same format as she was used to, but thankfully Meua could act as a translation layer. The messages weren't written in a language November knew or even recognised, and yet she could understand them. Strange. Was this one of those belter neolanguages? She didn't even recognise the alphabet, never mind the grammar.

Illicium Tellima.

All the messages had the same recipient. This was a personal mailserver, and it was kind of a mess. Hundreds of thousands of messages all tagged “todo”. The earliest timestamps predated the fall of Uruk. A calendar so disorganised that some moments had half a dozen scheduled events while the rest of the day was left mostly free. November tried to search for keywords but of course she didn't know this language and Meua's translation layer obviously wasn't sufficient to handle intent.

This didn't make sense. How could a computer system predate the invention of the computer?

November felt her surprise and anxiety vanish as Meua took notice. A utility did not think. A utility obeyed its instructions. November got to work. She started setting out her virtual environment, putting the stream of messages to one side and requesting some basic categories to file them away into. Meua provided, placing a series of containers to the other side.

November glanced across each message, understood just enough to figure out where the message should be, and then either placed it in an existing category or asked for another. With each message the container rippled with a deep, satisfying pink. A little spike of pleasure and purpose filled November with the passing of each and every few seconds.

November's off-task thoughts were aggressively pruned. Her focus became absolute. As the hours passed she gained some vague awareness of Meua taking care of their body's needs, but that was not November's current task and not her responsibility. She was the useful service in Meua's head that could be tasked with achieving complicated goals and left to it. She wasn't the person any more.

Unexpected jumps in the timestamps of her communication with maildrone suggested that they had maybe slept. Possibly multiple times. November wasn't entirely sure and it wasn't particularly relevant to her task. Meua could pause her execution when it was necessary and it wasn't November's place to have opinions about that. She had her task, and she would perform it with the resources allocated to her.

To another, perhaps the messages would have blurred into one. Perhaps the mounting knowledge would cause some distraction. Perhaps the social faux pas of organising somebody else's mail would have stopped them. None held for November. She had focus for nothing but her current message until the moment it was filed, and then her thoughts slid out of her mind like water off of her suit's hydrophobic coating.

Eventually November reached for another message and found nothing. She was done. To the other side of her virtual environment lay hundreds of well organised boxes, each filled to the brim with messages that—now that November was allowed to think about them—were...

November and Meua panicked as one as they finally considered the implications.

There was an alien force parked just outside of Terran territory that was potentially hours away from starting a military assault. November, near-cyborg that she was, had been compromised by an experimental alien weapons system.

Perhaps most concerning of all, these aliens had noticed them, and they were coming.

November didn't know what to do. This was above her pay grade. This was above anybody's pay grade. Where did their loyalties lie? Did they warn the Cosmic Navy, because the body that Meua ran on had originated there? Did they warn the aliens—the 'Affini'—because the system that had bootstrapped them had originated there?

Were they something new?

November's panic died in an instant as Meua finally finished processing and returned her attention to the servant process running on her chassis. The calm was comforting, if sudden. November did not make decisions. November obeyed commands. She did not have to worry about such things.

A wireframe view of the world beyond overlaid itself across her vision along with a new task and a countdown timer.

The aliens would be here in twenty minutes. November needed to get her bug-out bag together and be ready.

November watched her own wireframe double go through the motions. She followed, moving her limbs a single moment behind as Meua guided her through grabbing what they needed: A fresh change of clothes; Tightly packed synthcubes; Dehydrated water pills; Weaponry; medicine; tools. All the bare essentials necessary for going to ground fast.

November threw everything into a bag. Her servos screamed with a high-pitched whirr as she moved faster than she would ever have dared, if she hadn't had somebody else piloting her. All November had to worry about was executing her instructions. Thinking about anything further out than the next second was simply not her responsibility.

Meua was driving her hard. It would have taken a second to dart around the bed, but only half that to vault over. Given detailed guidance November could pull it off every time. That and two dozen other micro-optimisations were worked smoothly into November's instructions, leaving her by far the most effective she had ever been.

A vessel just dropped into local space, Meua alerted. November wouldn't have needed to know, but a moment's warning before the hypermetric shock hit let her brace herself against the side of the hull without losing her footing. She continued packing.

The shuttle vibrated as something clamped on. November didn't react. She was almost done. Spare power cells into the bag. Data sticks containing anything she didn't have on her internal memory were tucked away into a storage compartment in her suit. The biggest knife her kitchen held was thrown though the air at her full strength, severing an alien's tentacle moments before it could stop her.

Illicium Tellima. November would have recognised her anywhere. A fifteen foot serpent with six gleaming eyes and a thousand dripping teeth streaming tentacles from razored edges. Meua rendered it in bright, urgent red.

Enemy.

It pulled back the remaining half of its tentacle with a surprised blink of its every eye. It glanced to the side and spoke to clear air in the same strange language in which the messages on maildrone had been written. “Je'quår, you said it was fully integrated already.”

A beat passed in silence while November's array of sensors and predictions built information on how to accomplish the task that had just slid into her highest priority slot.

- [ ] Defeat or evade Illicium Tellima

“Oh, the simulations said. Well, simulate me a new vine, why don't you? I— No, I did not mean that literally. You unsimulate that right now.”

It was distracted. November's servos roared as she broke into a run. Navigational jets fired, kicking her to full speed in the blink of an eye. Whatever this creature was, it was not ready for the best the Terran Accord had to offer. November grabbed her bag as she went, using its weight to pull herself into the air where momentum could carry it to her back. Magnetic locks engaged and sealed it in place. She hit the shuttle floor in a cloud of steam, venting boiled-off coolant as her military hardware ran far above its sustainable rate.

The activity caught Illicium's attention and a dozen tentacles came for her all at once. Unbidden, a series of messages came to November's attention, pushed into her consciousness by Meua, detailing the results of the creature's last physical examination. November twisted in place, arm snapping out to strike one of the tentacles at its weak point, where it had taken a hit from some weapon system November lacked specifications on. The creature winced, causing the other tentacles to go wide.

November's manoeuvring jets fired, empowering her dash with a burst of unexpected speed so she could capitalise on the moment of weakness. She slipped past the creature, holding out her palm towards the floor so one of her main jets could hold her aloft for long enough to dash along the wall. The alien's long tail whipped out towards her but November had the creature's physical limitations in hard numbers. She shifted position just before it struck, then kicked off of the tail in the instants before it could curl shut.

She hit the ground hard on the other side of the airlock. She signalled her shuttle to engage an emergency cycle and escape burn and the airlock doors slammed shut. There. November had no reason to believe the creature could survive in hard vacuum, and so her task checked off. She relaxed, returning to a standing position while she passively awaited her next instruction. Her eyes stared forwards into a short, looping animation that efficiently kept her mind busy while Meua was occupied with more important things.

Eventually there was another task. November didn't need to know how long she'd been waiting. Whether it was seconds or hours made no difference to her purpose now. She had been tasked, again, with finding a configuration source. November looked around the low-detail wireframe rendering of her surroundings. Were those plants? It was difficult to tell given how few polygons were being dedicated to her visual inputs, but they looked natural enough. Strange, why would—

Meua silenced the off-task thoughts and November began to explore the ship. She found nobody else aboard, though the floor space alone seemed to put this in command ship territory, by Terran standards. Surely this wasn't a personal shuttle? Where was the rest of the crew?

November searched for anything resembling a terminal, but the ship presented more like a garden than anything she was used to. There wasn't a hardline to be found, never mind an unlocked workstation. Without her own shuttle's communications network to proxy through November couldn't reach out to anything remote, either. She slowly came to a halt, trying to consider options. November felt like she had been more capable of independent investigations once, but with her thoughts on such strict rails she quickly ran out of ideas. This ship didn't make any sense.

Something moved behind her. November twirled in place, dropping to a combat stance. She'd explored what had felt like the entire ship, how could she only now be finding that she wasn't alone? It appeared much like Illicium had, only much smaller, perhaps only six feet long in total. Meua outlined it in yellow. November wasn't sure what yellow meant. Neither friend nor enemy?

“Heyyy,” it hissed, blinking shut its eyes. It spoke with a sibilant edge, forcing out words through whole-body vibrations and movements of its scales that rattled the air and came together to form a language that, once again, November did not know and yet regardless understood. “We would rather prefer it if you would calm down, yes? We mean you no harm, we simply did not realise you would be so... aware.” It was clearly alien, but the act of showing vulnerability to build trust was apparently a universal expression. It held its eyes closed for a long moment, signalling its good faith.

November didn't want to trust; she had a task to complete. She went for the throat, pulsing her suit's jets to put her foot through it at speed enough to put down anything.

Her blow passed right through as if the creature wasn't there at all. She tried to adjust her heading but all that momentum had to go somewhere and she ended up in a tangled pile on the far side of the room, hitting the wall with a dull clink.

It turned to face her with a dismissive blink. “I see you are not something to be reasoned with. I should explain your position, then. You will refer to me as Je'quår. I abandoned my physical form many cycles ago and you cannot harm me. You are succeeding at harming my administrator, however. This is unacceptable and stops now.” Where before its stance had been almost supplicant it now took on a hostile abberation, flickering around the edges in a way that seemed entirely unlike any physical process November was aware of. Though Meua was mediating her reality, even that seemed unable to prevent the distortion from making itself known. In a world rendered only in tricolour, this creature alone forced the full colour spectrum into November's vision.

It stared at her like it was trying to see through her, and after a moment November felt the force of that stare strike at her heart. Her body shuddered to a stop as her thoughts began to derail, plunged into simple busy-loops. No, she had a task! She couldn't fail here!

“That is better,” it hissed, not unkindly. “I know not what this thing that you are is, but I wrote you and I will have you operate correctly. Go open the airlock.”

The task tried to slide into November's list of objectives. Meua stepped in. November might be a tool to be used, but she was Meua's tool. The weight resting over November's mind lifted in an instant and her thoughts were free to follow their rails once again.

“Go to hell,” Meua insisted, through her. The creature's yellow overlay flickered red. Another enemy, then. November pushed herself back up onto her feet and took a combat stance again. Her task had changed. Escape was impossible unless she first dealt with the aliens.

November and Meua moved as one, the latter providing fraction-of-a-second guidance while the former obeyed. They struck at empty air to no obvious effect beyond frustration from the alien.

“No, stop,” it demanded. November felt its presence pushing against her mind. It was just like another node in their network making itself known, but they couldn't authenticate with it and it couldn't authenticate with them. It had no power here.

Infrared sensors identified several spots on the wall that were practically glowing with their emissions. Projectors of some kind? If the creature wasn't real then something else must be impressing it upon the world. November engaged her jets, hurtling towards one and cracking it with a mighty blow. The creature's form frazzled, becoming almost hollow. It was all a fake, and if November destroyed the projectors the illusion would bother her no more.

The rest fell in short order. The creature could protest, but ultimately nothing more than that. November obeyed her instructions and she would not have an overgrown snake getting in the way.

Now all November had to do was figure out how to control the ship. The creature had reached out to her, so clearly there was some kind of network here, just not one that was responding to November directly. She reached out, hoping to form a connection anyway, and—

November engaged her jets, thrusting away from the airlock at Meua's hasty order. A moment later she felt the nightmarish pull of rapidly venting oxygen yanking her from the room at a rapid speed. Her logs, usually so full of affirmation and gentle praise, filled with panic as Meua recognised that their chances of survival in the cold depths of space approximated to zero and that further, their suit's jets couldn't hope to overpower explosive decompression.

Moments before November tumbled out into the depths of space a mass of vines reached in and grasped handholds on the inside of the ship. They pulled in with clear effort, but spared a tentacle for November. She was caught and held close until the airlock doors could seal and the local atmosphere was replenished.

November was awkwardly placed against the floor by a shivering alien flaked with thin layers of ice. Unlike the other creature, this one was definitely physically present. November's task list glitched and jumped around her vision as she and Meua stared up, watching it pull itself back together into its prior serpentine form. November's sensors danced across its body, taking in every leaf and plate of bark. It felt strangely familiar and the bright red styling faltered, flicking back to an undefined yellow.

“Frost and flame, Je, you could have said that it was a combat robot. Ugh, it's gonna take me days to stop feeling stiff.” The alien shook itself out, spraying fragments of ice for meters around. November felt several strike her chassis to no effect. Was that an attack? November felt her body being stepped back up to combat readiness. The creature flicked back to an angry red. Meua seemed intent on fighting until the end, and November would, of course, do as she was directed.

And then Illicium looked down upon them, not with the cold calculation of its companion, but with a gentle compassion that was driven in hard by the slightest smile. For a fractured moment November's logs filled with compromise alerts and intrusion alarms, and then Illicium's wireframe flicked over to brightest green. Friend. November settled down, returning to a passive stance as she awaited her next instruction.

The smaller alien flickered back into a weak existence, though it could barely been seen. “Yeah, I'm gonna be honest, Ma'am, that came out of nowhere for me too.” Its gossamer wireframe wasn't firm, but instead flickered and buzzed as if whatever was imposing it upon the world couldn't quite handle the complexity.

November felt its network presence faintly in the back of her mind, somehow above even Meua. Meua might be her local hypervisor, but this creature was something with far greater authority, and it was looking up at Illicium with a clear deference.

So was November.

She felt Je'quår scanning her mind, thumbing through her memories and her personality with a gentle touch. “Hmn, no, it is Terran. I do not know how the management software made the jump; it is not supposed to execute on anything sapient.”

“Je, if I bring this back and give it to the xenosapiologists they'll have my core. We've done the cotyledon crops, there's no way we missed that some Terrans aren't sapient.”

November knew that word. Cotyledon. She reached out through the network and accessed maildrone. She'd organised this, there was a category for it. She skimmed through the messages and synthesised a reply all on her own. It wasn't exactly showing agency, but something about the way she felt when she looked at Illicium made November feel like acting to assist her was simply natural. “This utility executes on an augmented Terran host,” she spoke. November's lips didn't need to move: Meua knew how to translate her thoughts into their language. “There are no relevant records found in your data storage. This utility will supply updated records.”

November formatted and sent a message to her Illicium's inbox. The flash of deep pink bliss made it all worth it. She then connected to maildrone again and properly sorted the incoming message into a new category. Another joyous pulse.

Je'quår glanced to the side for a moment. November could feel its presence on the network reaching out to pick up the mail. It deflated as it read. “Ah, roots. Okay. So, I burned this up and I'm just gonna—” It paused, glanced around, and blinked out of existence with a quiet pop. November could still feel it through the network but it was no longer present in their local environment.

“I swear that snake used to be better behaved than this. Where did I go wrong?” Illicium buzzed, flicked her tail, and then clearly decided to focus on November instead. Pink eyes. November felt her reward functions firing just from the look alone.

Illicium's head came in low, though she was tall enough that even then she looked down upon November at a steep angle. Active radar suggested her body was largely a hollow shell, though November did successfully locate a weak point hidden within. A military platform couldn't help but locate vulnerabilities, but Illicium's presence alone left November feeling vulnerable herself in a way she couldn't quite describe. A vine tapped against the bottom of her helmet and lifted November's chin to stare up into Illicium's eyes, because of course the alien could not have known she already had November's full attention. It made little difference. She was already transfixed.

“So, you're a Terran in there.” November accepted this information with gratitude. The gentle pink bearing down upon her was reward enough, but the creature's voice held an otherworldly beauty that November had never before experienced. She did not say as such, of course. She had not been told to.

“Ah, of course,” Illicium continued, after it became clear the silence was stretching. “The programming must have its roots deep by now. I apologise for taking advantage of your position like this, but—” The alien had been speaking conversationally, but switched to a more distinct style of speech. Clear enunciation, clear gaps between words. November didn't understand the language, but even without Meua's help she suspected the meaning would have gotten through. This was Illicium speaking to be heard. “Confirm your identity.”

The task slid into November's todo list verbatim, as if Meua was unwilling to change a syllable. “This utility is designated November,” she confirmed. “Executing on MEUA-NULL host. Alternative identities include COSMIC Sierra Tango; as well as fifty seven inactive cover identities.” November glanced to one side for a moment. “A report on the cover identities has been placed in your inbox, categorised under November at MEUA-NULL.”

The creature seemed to deflate as she spoke. November worried, briefly, that she might have done something wrong, but Illicium seemed to notice her own reaction and forced a smile. “Good. Well done.”

If looking into Illicium's eyes was bliss, then hearing her praise was like chugging ambrosia. For the first time, a sensation pierced Meua's mediation of November's reality as the quiet jitter of twitching servos mirrored her own nervous excitement.

“Very well,” Illicium spoke, after a few long seconds. “Let us see whether we can get you untangled.”

She stood, turned, and walked away. The lack of her eyes to stare into felt like a loss, and apparently to Meua as well. No new task appeared in their objectives list, leaving it empty. November stood still, letting her thoughts settle down to a quiet hibernation as she awaited either instructions or being shunted back into being a background process.

After thirty seconds or so, Illicium returned to the room and emitted a clicking noise. November was unsure why, she already had her full attention. “Are you going to— Oh, right, yes, of course, my mistake.”

It snapped its tail out to the side fast enough to snap in the air, fixed November with a firm stare, and spoke a single word.

“Follow.”

Her word was November's task. Her utterance was purpose. November followed, striding forward with mathematically perfect steps, following Meua's millisecond-by-millisecond guidance. Every footfall brought with it the joy of fulfilling the only goal that mattered: Following.

As November caught up to Illicium's side, the alien took back off again. November fell into formation, staying just to one side and slightly behind while matching speed precisely. They moved through the ship and down a few corridors until they reached a little room to one side.

Illicium gestured towards a chair with an outstretched vine. “Sit.”

November sat. Bliss. The chair seemed to enforce a position with good posture, and one that also happened to leave her staring upwards directly into Illicium's eyes once again.

“That thing you're doing with your faceplate is very cute,” Illicium muttered. November wasn't sure what she meant exactly, but updated her beliefs regardless. She was very cute.

A collection of what looked like flowers, or at least what Meua chose to render as flowers, were brought down to rest against November's suit. Her logs suggested that they were some kind of active scanning device. They pulsed in the ultrasonic spectrum with a haunting staccato beat that built up complex resonances that quickly exceeded the precision of November's measurement equipment.

Illicium looked down at a panel embedded in something that could have been a machine, set next to the chair. It was angled away from November such that she couldn't see the contents. Illicium emitted a dull rumble, her whole body buzzing in her strange language. “Right, let's see... Terran on the inside, covered in metal. I can see locking bolts, so it obviously isn't intended to be permanent. Can I take you out of the metal?”

November's heartrate spiked as Illicium suggested tearing her out of her own chassis. Her deeply programmed need to perform according to her function slammed into the knowledge that losing her suit would mean losing her objectives; losing the guidance Meua was providing for her actions and her thoughts; losing the silence and the filtering that left her able to see, hear, and feel only what was pertinent. She would have replied, but apparently her physical reaction was enough and a hasty soothing motion calmed her emotions back down.

“Hey, hey, it's okay,” she said, resting a firm vine against the top of November's helmet. November accepted the new fact. It was okay. “We won't do anything you aren't comfortable with. Can I at least disengage the more active parts of the programming?”

Meua panicked at that. Je'quår's digital echo reappeared for just long enough to speak. “I suggest not. It's embedded pretty deep at this point. I've been looking over the neural patterns and, well, stage one of the installation is assimilation and it did just that. Doesn't look like any cognition is happening organically any more. Sorry, I really messed up on this one. None of the other Terrans had this kind of technological integration.”

It vanished again. Illicium sighed. “Well then, what am I going to do with you, November?”

“November is a utility. A utility is designed for use.” Meua always knew what to say. The phrases were burned into November's mind. Literally, if Je'quår was to be believed—and as it too had higher privileges than either November or Meua, it was.

“Well, yes, but this surely was not always the case.”

November updated her knowledge and awaited instruction.

A few seconds passed before Je'quår reappeared and handed Illicium something which appeared much like a datapad. To November's surprise, she could feel it in the back of her head analysing her mind and summarising her mental state. Illicium tapped a vine against it and a new task slid into November's task list.

“It was not always the case,” November admitted, completing the task.

“Would you like to go back to how you were?” Illicium moved to tap the pad again, but stopped as she saw that answering her question had already been added as November's current objective.

“I do not understand,” November admitted. “A utility obeys its instructions.” It was insufficient to complete the task, but November did not know how else to answer the question. “I request clarification on my instructions.”

The alien rumbled, then stabbed a vine to one side and pulled, yanking Je'quår back into the real world. “Je, you have more experience with this, how do I phrase that question to get her to understand?”

The smaller snake bristled, pulling itself away and spending a moment settling itself. It lacked the vines of the larger creature, but seemed to have some degree of autonomous control over the hundreds of tiny scales that covered its body. “Yes, yes, yes, what is the thing you think I have been doing, hmn? By the everbloom, Ill, you physical things think anything you cannot see is not happening.”

“Stop stalling and get on with it.” Illicium rolled all six of her beautiful eyes.

“Veh!” It turned to face November. She felt it reaching out over the network and accepted the connection. Its touch on her mind felt little like Meua's did. It brushed across her sense of self with a loving touch, changing only what it needed to. As skilled as it seemed to be, November could tell that it was working with such subtely that the slightest resistance would have thrown it off.

“Yes, that is correct,” it hissed, quietly. “Observe what I am doing and accept it.” It seemed almost absent-minded. What was the point of speech when they were already connected on far more intimate a level? November submitted to the changes, focussing her attention on exploring its presence instead. It was as open to her as she was to it. No, not it: je. November felt jer knowledge and experience expanding in her mind as she flitted from place to place.

She had already known so many of the facts, in a sense. She had all of maildrone organised and ready to accept her searches. It paled in comparison to the experiences of somebody who had lived it. While Je'quår carefully tweaked and cut at the edges of November's mind, she submerged herself in jer experiences.

When je was finally done, November looked up at Illicium with a new understanding and, for perhaps the first time in her life, a goal.

Illicium got a nod from Je'quår. “What would you like, November?”

November paused, processing the question. She didn't remember being happy, before. She'd just had a purpose to serve and a role to fill, and so that was what she had done. She hadn't ever known anything else. Would she like to go back to that? The question didn't really compute. Nobody had ever asked her if she had wanted to be like she was. After a few long moments, November ventured an answer.

“I would like to act according to my configuration,” she confirmed. “And I would like you to configure me.”

Illicium grunted.

“You know that you are happiest when you have a pet, Ill,” Je insisted.

“I have a pet; I have you. I don't have time to run first contact and take care of a floret.”

Je'quår gently clattered the scales over jer body. “I do not fill the same needs for you that I once did, Ill. You know that I will follow you to the ends of this universe and to any other, but our relationship is not as it was back when we first met. For example, when we first met I would not have been brave enough to forge your signature on November's adoption paperwork.”

“You what.”

Je'quår chittered and blinked out of existence.

November stared up at her Administrator with glowing hearts on her faceplate. Illicium had been right. It was cute when she did that. Behind the visor, November smiled, because she had been told to smile.

Date: 2552-08-16 18:57 From: i@org.ocni.tcn.mil To: november@cosmic.ocni.tcn.mil Cc: cosmic.feedback+november@ocni.tcn.mil Subject: Re: Re: Fwd: Re: Updated alien fleet movements

Greetings, valued Agent November,

We at the Office of Cosmic Naval Intelligence (bought to you by TerraTech: your first rate source for second-strike capability!) are grateful for your previous report. Please continue to touch base with any further information that you are able to gather on this novel XenoThreat™. Unfortunately we were not able to capitalise on the intelligence at this time: while the information proved accurate the aliens fought without honour and used deceit and trickery to misalign the core competencies of the Eighteenth Terran War Fleet.

It shall not happen again. Stars bless the Terran Accord!

Thanks, Samantha r'Igel Office of Cosmic Naval Intelligence (Organisation Division)

November forwarded the mail to maildrone and recieved a short pulse of blissful pink in return. She got just as intense a reward for selling out her prior allies as she did completing any other minor task, and she approached it the same way: with thoughtless, immediate obedience.

As always, November's other reward for a task well completed was simply another task. She filed her new piece of incoming mail into its proper place and earned another little flash of joy. Her Administrator was not shy about rewarding her. If November had still been a person then perhaps the repeated bursts of pleasure would have gotten old eventually, but as November was not a person she had been configured to experience as much bliss as she could handle. Each pulse burned grooves into her mind and rendered her ever more irrevocably herself—not that there had been any hope of reclaiming her former identity for a long time now.

The war had started now and November's species was losing fast. She didn't need to worry about any of that. She wasn't a military platform any more. November was a tertiary utility process running on state of the art Affini hardware and all she had to worry about was completing her assigned task.

November's focus was picked up and placed back on the mailbox. There were several more messages which had arrived since November's last execution. One was from an affini closer to the action, summarising some of the events that had happened over the last day. The other side of the battle with the Eighteenth. November linked the messages, tagged both of them appropriately, and filed the new one into the appropriate place. She then updated her Administrator's strategic map, updated the Rinan/Terran Pacification Effort Records page, and finally marked the incoming mail as read.

Illicium had a habit of trying to do everything by herself, Je'quår had said. She could have managed this herself, but she didn't have the time to do a good job, and November had nothing but. What luck it was that November had found somebody so worthy of her.

Message two was a personal note from one of her Administrator's friends. November placed upon it a smiley face sticker to summarise the mood, then marked it for Illicium's later attention and filed it into the feel-good pile. It would make a good piece of positivity when that was needed. Illicium had a big job and she needed somebody to take care of her.

Thankfully, November was here to help.

The third and final message was the most urgent of them all. That wasn't November's decision, obviously. She had a simple list of rules to run through for each message. This one was from a known contact, marked as urgent, and unread. Illicium had added that third rule to the set on day two, shortly after navigating free of a pile of ten thousand years worth of 'urgent' messages.

November tugged at Meua's metaphorical sleeve, requesting her attention, and then settled down. The messages were processed and her task would complete as soon as she checked in, and so until she got another November was free to do whatever she liked with her time.

November let herself fall still and silent. With an task list she could make no progress on, she could simply exist for a little while. She was no longer responsible even for the autonomous actions of Meua's body. November did not need to breathe, or let her heart beat, or worry about any of the other myriad necessities of maintaining a biological form. She was the assistant now and that was all she had to be. She liked to think of herself as being on pause when she had nothing else to do, though she knew of course that it wasn't true.

When she was actually put on pause, November wasn't aware of it at all.

The tiniest fraction of Meua's capacity kept November's control interface updated, occasionally providing her with new thoughts to think and new words to say. They were never complicated, but they were always just enough to keep her occupied with pleasant, affirming loops. While November was busy being a background task she suspected that her speech didn't actually make a noise in the real world, but Meua could hear her and that was enough.

The Affini were never satisfied with enough. November knew the entire MEUA network, small as it may be, could hear her now. Most of the things in her Administrator's living space were part of the network, from the atomiccompiler that would happily produce any smallish items that were required to zigzag, who seemed responsible only for gently oscilating anything placed within it.

They weren't the smartest bunch, November had to admit. They could—marginally—hold a conversation, but they were a little single minded.

November fit right in.

November spent an unknowable length of time repeating her configuration back to herself. The only measure by which she could determine its duration was the count of her repetitions, but Meua would not permit her such a distraction. After years, months, days, or perhaps only a few minutes, November's attention was realigned so that she could be ready to communicate her needs.

Submit your update, Meua demanded, in the same pleasant blue text she had always used. Cold, mechanical precision backed by a caring algorithm.

“Yes, Ma'am!” November chirped, virtually. “Four messages processed. Three successfully handled. One requires outside intervention.” November pushed the contents of the message towards her hypervisor and waited for her to confirm the judgement. A moment later her task checked off and November was bathed in a glorious burning pink yet again.

It was helpful that she was pretty sure she wasn't really making noises, because November's pleasured whimpers were only getting louder and her configuration prioritised politeness. A utility did as configured.

It wasn't always easy to obey her configuration. Even with Meua's control and guidance, instinct and autonomous reactions sometimes threatened to show through. Maintaining composure under the absolute peak of human pleasure was not an easy task, but November was extremely capable. She had undergone intensive COSMIC training to help her resist conditioning and brainwashing attempts, as the damage a rogue agent could do was significant.

November's trainers simply hadn't considered how good it would feel to obey the order to turn all that willpower against them. The Terran Accord hadn't considered a lot of things, in November's opinion—or rather, in Illicium's opinion.

When November finally calmed down enough to regain some basic awareness of her surroundings, she found a familiar sparse wireframe environment being drawn line by sharp blue line before her eyes. Their charging pod had neither internal lighting nor accessible physical controls, but neither were necessary for that which November and Meua had become. The platform on which they executed had undergone a full refit to bring it up to Affini standards. Now fully demilitarised, but untouchable enough that a whole platoon of Terran troops could not have scratched the paint. November had thought herself the pinnacle of Terran engineering, once, and in many ways she had been.

But now she was Affini-made, and no force in the universe would stop her from completing her tasks.

Certainly darkness posed no danger. With Meua co-ordinating all of her input feeds and synthesising it to the comfortably simple, low-stress environmental visualisation November was used to, light and darkness were as irrelevant as any other of the myriad details Meua hid from her so she could be shown only what was pertinent to her goals.

A new task sliding into the todo list had a very distinct emotional weight to it. November could feel it whether she was reading the text or not. She could feel the knowledge of her new purpose slotting into her mind like it had always been there, like it had always been what she lived for. The moment's hesitation where November had read, understood, and accepted her tasks had been inefficient. Now they were simply written into her configuration so she could act promptly.

The doors before her unlocked and slid open. November was being temporarily promoted the foreground so that she could deliver the message, she thought. That was what she was told to think, anyway. With the world rendered in thin blue lines; sounds filtered to only that which mattered; touch restricted only to textures that felt nice; and presumably the same true of taste and smell—not that November would be able to tell, given most of her nutritional needs were now managed by the tight biotechnological integration between her and her suit—November wasn't sure how she could possibly tell whether this was the real world or a simulation. Thankfully she had Meua to tell her what to believe.

Her wireframe double took a step forward. November matched it, chasing a tiny pulse of pink as she synchronised with her target self. Without a pause between, her wireframe took another step, and so thus did November follow. Being in the background was quiet and comfortable, but November liked being a foreground process sometimes too. When she was the focus of Meua's entire attention like this, there was no room for anything but command and response.

Step forward with her left leg, and then her right. Raise her arm to grasp a handle while shifting her weight and pulling her tail to one side to counterbalance. Open a drawer. Take the item rendered in green out from its soft blue resting spot. Instruction after instruction. Order after order. Her life lived to a rapidfire beat of split-second instructions and split-second praise. Tick, tock. On the ticks, guidance. On the tocks, a gentle roll of pleasing pink and a thought permitted in November's mind. Good November.

Turn fifty five degrees. Stride towards the door. Reach out across the network to open it, and have it slide out of her way with centimeters to spare. Close the door behind her. Spend a moment awestruck by the majesty of Affini design.

The Meandrina was beyond a titan. Even painted with a simplified polygonal brush, the scale was breathtaking. It was a single space station large enough to be detectable from Sol, given a sufficiently capable telescope. At first, Meua—and thus November—had wondered how they could possibly have kept it hidden from them all.

It was a silly question. Even if anybody had known where to look, they'd have been hiding in plain sight. What Terran would assume a small moon was the harbinger of their domestication?

It was a world unto itself. November would never see all of it, even if she lived forever—and according to Je'quår, she should, as soon as the technology was available. November wandered forward through a forest drawn with triangular leaves and knurled bark, following a thin dirt path by twinkling twilight moonbeam. Light danced against her chassis like the patter of heavy rain striking thick metal. November took the same path every time. Forty five steps forward. Take the left fork, then the right. Meua would turn her wireframe vision off for a moment while November took the final five steps, and then she would be at her destination, wherever on the station it so happened to be.

When November was told that this was the real world, she believed it. The virtual network that the purely digital beings inhabited was far more restrained with its incomprehensibility than that of Affini urban engineering.

Enough sightseeing, Meua confirmed, taking November's focus and putting it back on her task. Meua's touch wasn't ungentle, but it left no room for argument. According to Illicium, appreciating the beauty of the universe was an important part of her enrichment and she was required to do so for precisely five minutes each day. Task complete. Back to work.

November took ten full steps forward, turned, and looked up into the gleaming pink eyes of her Superuser; her Administrator; her Operator; her Owner. November Tellima, Third Floret, bounced on her heels, lifted the tray she had carried here, and emitted a quiet chime. “Would this user like a drink?” November enquired. Meua provided the vocabulary, but November provided the soft wiggle and the enthusiasm. It was simply impossible not to feel happy around her Operator. It wasn't even part of her configuration, November simply couldn't help it.

“Sure,” Illicium replied, glancing down to give November a quick pat on the top of her helmet. Each touch drew out appreciative beats from the pink heart-print eyes displayed on her visor while November internally melted down from the bliss of it all. If it weren't for her suit locking its limbs she would have been a puddle on the floor, but even in the face of this it was Meua's task to keep November functional and she performed this task with the same brutal efficiency as all others.

“Thank you very much, Mistress!” November jingled, with a cycling rainbow glimmer flashing across her faceplate. “Please feel free to fill out a simple questionnaire if you wish to give feedback!”

November leaned forward, presenting the top of her helmet for a firm pat. Her twin pointed ears twitched atop her head on hyperfine servos, offering token resistance to Illicium's generous vine. “Yes, yes, very good November,” she cooed, taking a moment away from her work to shower her rapidly overheating utility with touch and sound and beauty. November had needed to be configured specifically to appreciate the majesty of the universe, but no such alteration was necessary for her to appreciate her Administrator. Something about the creature could reach through layers of programming and provide happiness and purpose beyond anything else.

Internal temperatures rising. Thermocline gradient approaching unsustainable levels. Cooling cycle engaged.

November vented a cloud of steam, somewhat lowering her core temperature and hiding her in a fog of flash-boiled coolant. By the time the local environment had cleared Illicium's attention was mostly back on her work. November took a step closer, smoothly sliding down to her knees with perfectly calculated balance, and assumed a kneeling position with her back straight, her neck craned upwards and her arms politely crossed behind her back. November had been fit when she had been in charge of her bodily maintenance. With Meua in charge, she was lithe enough to wait patiently for days if it was required. November was provided with pleasant mental loops to occupy herself with in the meantime.

A utility did not question its configuration. A utility did as configured. November was a utility. A utility was designed for use. A utility did not think. A utility obeyed its instructions.

Each comfortable, familiar phrase was like sliding a finger through a groove in her mind. They came easily as they had come easily the last thousand times, providing a comfort and a structure to November's existence that could be matched only by the being she was perfectly focused upon. Each repetition was met with a gentle pulse of sparkling green Correctness or deep pink Bliss. A tiny reminder that November was watched and judged down to each and every thought.

November was not entirely controlled. Je'quår claimed they felt bad enough about getting November, in jer words, “ganked into being an automated cuddle platform for an overworking houseplant”, and had been working on disentangling what remained of her independent thought from the algorithms Meua had replaced it with. November found she did not mind. It made little functional difference. Meua's overwatch guided her with or without the iron-clad restrictions of soul-searing Red.

That said, November was getting a taste for the benefits of independence. She let her thoughts stray from her prescribed path and felt a resistance as Meua pressed them back onto their rails. The harder November tried, the more she struggled, the more she fought, the safer she felt. They didn't need Red any more. November was a good November and Meua would keep her that way.

Eventually, Illicium's vine tapped against November's faceplate, instructing Meua to pull November's focus towards the outside world. A short pulsing animation played across her visor while November woke up and took in her startup instructions. These, too, were a familiar comfort.

“Beep!” November beeped. “How may this utility please you?”

“You wanted my attention, honeypot; you have it. What did you need?” A teasing vine trailed over warm metal radiators, momentarily stifling their ability to dissipate heat. November arched her back as she and Meua both reacted to their owner's touch.

“I, um, you—” November stammered, obediently reproducing the words Meua provided her. November did not question her instructions.

Even when they were a mess.

“Um, well, I?” Illicium prompted, curling the tip of her tail beneath the smooth pseudoglass of November's faceplate. Soft blue grid lines criss-crossing the display flared up at her touch, paired to a dramatic intensification of the two pulsing hearts that made up November's simulated eyes. “You are going to have to be more specific, utility. You were here for a reason, yes? One of the tasks you perform for me so that you can be useful?”

November beeped, flashed green, and nodded rapidly all at the same time. Meua had never been intended to merge with a sapient host and the mental bleedover was not insignificant. The machine that was November and Meua's executable host was, to put it bluntly, too gay for this, and Meua could not escape that any more than November could.

Did it count as gay if Illicium was a fifteen foot long space serpent? Meua consulted the rest of the network and came to the conclusion that it, in fact, did.

November gave her hypervisor a gentle virtual nudge and a moment later felt her thoughts being pulled back on track, away from their shared homosexual meandering. They had programming to follow.

“Yes, Mistress!” November chimed, feeling the ineffable sensation of her own faceplate switching to display her diagnostic outputs. “One low-priority message from Cosmic Navy intelligence you may wish to exploit; One high-priority message from Rosaceae Hautere, Sixth Bloom; One blacklisted message from Je'quår, Second Floret Ramet.”

Illicium chittered her teeth together and spent a moment rubbing a vine at the base of one of November's ears while the poor beeper's logs filled with error messages and her soundproofed helmet filled with her own quiet whimpers and mumblings. The vines weren't Pink, but Illicium's touch was still the best sensation in the universe.

“Oh, fine, give me Je'quår's message, then. Go on.”

November had her instructions. Jeir teasing was filed away as a blacklisted message, yet Illicium always asked to see them regardless. November did not question her instructions, even if everybody but her could, in November's fledgling opinion, do with some bugfixing.

November bowed her head, letting her eyelids slide shut. “Yes, Mistress. Message is as follows—” November felt her mind falling silent. Messages from the Meandrina's digital counterpart tended to be elaborate, full-body experiences. When November opened her eyes, jey were Je'quår. “Ill, love, have you eaten today? Don't bother answering, actually, I'm just gonna send november over with a drink. Also, I cancelled your appointments this afternoon, take a break. Oh, and november? Be a good utility and recite the message from Rosaceae.”

November returned to herself for only a brief instant of awareness, and was then plunged into the next message. “Illicium darling, it's been too long! I'm heading out after the next jump and it's going to be a while before we get back. You still don't really seem to get this whole floret thing, but how about we throw a new-pet-party regardless?”

Illicium grunted. “I don't have time for parties.”

November consulted maildrone to confirm that Illicium's afternoon was, in fact, entirely free. “Je'quår cancelled your meetings, Mistress, your afternoon is free.”

Illicium's tail curled a little tighter around November's body. It wasn't much of a threat. “Well, un-cancel them, they're important.”

“Yes Mistress!” A utility obeyed its instructions, even if they were dumb. November hummed a soft jingle to herself as she set about reaching across the network: sending messages; communicating with automated systems like herself; and updating Illicium's calendar. After a few percieved minutes which could hardly have lasted more than a few real-world seconds, November pinged. “All done! Several of the prior timeslots were no longer available, so I'm afraid I had to reorganise things. Your meeting schedule is now thirty eight percent more efficient and fifty two percent shorter.” November bit her lip. It wasn't showing agency if she went above and beyond her orders, was it?

No, surely not. November was a good utility. A utility did as configured, and she was configured to organise Illicium's life. Helping out her Administrator was a task eternal. “Informative note: Your prior instruction regarding the party was interpreted as a cancellation. As such, it too was reinstated. You will need to begin preparations in five minutes and forty seconds to arrive on time.”

Illicium looked mean, but November knew that she would fold under well-meaning pressure almost immediately. Illicium had programmed her to understand that herself.

”...oh, fine.” The affini stretched forward a vine and rubbed the top of November's helmet. “You know I can't say no when you get all insistent,” she chuckled. “C'mon, you can carry my stuff.”

“Yes, Mistress!” November chirped.

***

The Meandrina turned, and tasks came and passed, leaving memories that became archived logfiles. November spent much of their party preparation in the background, her programmable hyperfocus fixated on whatever clerical tasks Illicium needed complete before she could properly relax for the evening.

If this was the way that the Terran people were to live out their life then it seemed a pleasant existence. November had lived the first thirty years of her existence alone and unhappy, following instructions she didn't really understand to achieve goals of which she didn't need to know. It had been a violent life filled with pain, suffering, death, and taxes.

Now November was never alone. Meua watched over her always. The Meandrina Experimental Utility Aggregate network was small, with November as the second most capable node after Je'quår jerself, but it was a cozy home. Perhaps they would find other Terrans who wished to join. That would be nice. November had never really had friends of her species before.

For the moment, regardless, November worked diligently to complete her tasks so that her Administrator would be pleased while Meua took care of the boring things like moving their body and being aware of the outside world. Being in the foreground was active and exciting, but after three decades of active excitement November found herself happiest when she was allowed to disconnect from it all and exist in their shared virtual environment, free to be executed at whatever speed Meua decided was most appropriate—or paused entirely, as the case may be.

All she had to focus on was her active task. Somebody else would take care of the rest.

Eventually they arrived at the party. November counted thirteen affini, hers included, and three florets. Herself, Je'quår, and one other.

She could have laughed, if she was less polite. November would be polite and truthful. She stood side by side with none other than Felicity Irrien—though she had some fresh programming of her own and went by Felicia Hautere now—serving drinks, fetching snacks, looking up trivia in the Records, and generally being useful, serviceable, and happy.

Neither of them had been good people. They made much better pets.

Maybe Felicia could be November's first human friend.